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Pleasing the Lord

2012-02-06T23:38:00.000-06:00

I admit it - this past week in particular, I have been extremely pleased with my oldest child. My child has worked hard to accomplish something and it is now being rewarded (to protect my child's privacy, I will remain non-specific). This reward brings pure joy to my child's heart and I'm bursting with pride and excitement.

Now I wonder if the Lord is pleased with His children like a parent is with their own child? I'm sure He did with Christ - remember what He said as the Holy Spirit descended upon Christ during his baptism - "This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased" (Matthew 3:17; NIV)? In the past, whether due to lack of spiritual maturity or faulty teachings, I viewed God as looking down on me, constantly condemning me for the sin in my life. I felt as if He was pointing His finger down at me saying "You should have done this," or "you could have done that better." I didn't feel as if He was pleased with me.

I have since learned this is not completely true. To begin with, the Lord knows I'm not perfect, which is why He sent His Son to die for me. And He didn't stop with the sacrifice of Christ. He then sent His Holy Spirit - our helper to guide us through this life. There are also scriptures explaining how we can please God, our Father in Heaven. Romans 12:1 says "Therefore I urge you brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God - this your true and proper worship" (NIV).

Need another example? Romans 14:17-18 says "For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit, 18 because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God..."(NIV).

Finally, one more verse - this is from 1 Chronicles 29:17 - "I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with integrity..."(NIV).

So, it seems to me that living a righteous life - full of integrity and sacrifice pleases the Lord. And even when I do mess up, He is there to pick me up and give me another chance - because that is what a merciful, gracious and loving Father does. Knowing this frees me. I can now come to the Lord with a heart of worship, not one of fear. Though we are to fear the Lord, I want my worship to stem from true gratitude, not through forced motivation. My relationship with the Lord has grown because my heart and soul delight in the Lord, just as my child delights in her reward.

Be Careful What You Pray For...

2012-01-09T23:51:00.000-06:00

...or so the saying goes. I used to edit my prayers because the cliche echoed in my head. I decided though if I truly want to become who the Lord wants me to be, then I'm going to have to pray without fear. So, a few weeks ago I took a deep breath and prayed the Lord would show me my heart and He did (relentlessly, yet gently). Let me just say "yuck." Issues popped up - issues I thought I dealt with a while ago.

Let me start by saying this: I know the Lord has worked in all areas of my life. I can look back at where I once was and where I am now and see growth and maturity. But there are times when I compromise or when these issues sneak back into my life because I'm not keeping a vigilant watch. That's what I'm dealing with now. I tend to be selfish, less generous, easily angered, and so on. I know this to be true because my behavior surprised me at times when tested. For example - rebellion. I know I should be writing more, but hey, I want to do something else instead, so I will (cue the petulant child).

In Psalm 139:23-24, David writes "Search me God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." (NIV) Thankfully, the Lord will work on those who want to be changed. That's me - I want to be changed. I figure the less yucky issues I have in my heart, then the more the Lord can fill my heart with Him. His ways become my ways.

Despite not liking what I saw - I am grateful. I am battling less with my self and I feel more at peace. So, are you going to be careful about what you pray for?

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T22:39:00.003-06:00

May you and your loved ones have a Merry Christmas! I pray you have a wonderful new year full of hope, love, and many blessings.

My Slow Awakening

2011-12-17T17:13:00.000-06:00

I want to continue a bit with the "awakening" thoughts. It's no secret that I battle with food issues, as in I love food - all kinds of food. Crispy, crunchy, gooey, creamy - I like a lot of it. But recently, some points have been brought to my attention.

Point #1: I know that unhealthy eating and lack of exercise can lead to numerous diseases and even death. I wrestle with that thought everyday. The point the Lord made to me was this - My life was bought at a price. It is worth more than the greasy slice of pizza I ate for lunch.

Point #2: At this moment, food controls me. It was hard to type that last line, but it's true. If I'm given a choice between a piece of fruit or candy, I will pick the candy. Now that I admit this I realize how ridiculous it is to have an inanimate object control me. It can't control me, but somehow I have given it power.

Point #3: The LORD has supplied me with the knowledge regarding health. Basically, I believe, any food He has created is good for me. That includes fruits, veggies, grass-fed meats, and multi-grains, all as minimally processed as possible. Now it's my choice - am I going to be wise or foolish?

Point #4: Part of my responsibility in taking care of my family is to make sure they are fed healthy meals so that they can do what they need to do everyday.

Maybe there is something in your life that is holding you hostage. I want you to know there is freedom in Christ. It may not happen overnight - it could be His plan for you to experience this journey with Him, but it will happen when you surrender completely to Jesus. I believe that's the case for me.

Let me finish with an encouraging verse: Galatians 5:1 says "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." (NIV)

Sleepwalking

2011-11-17T23:47:00.001-06:00

Ephesians 5:13-15 "But everything exposed by the light becomes visible - and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. 14 This is why it is said 'Wake up Sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.' 15 Be very careful, then, how you live - not as unwise but as wise." (NIV)

Lately I've been re-thinking how I live my life - what virtues I possess and what character traits I want to instill in my children. I think the Lord is using homeschooling to open my eyes even more to His will and purpose for life (homeschooling - apparently it's not just for kids).

I will admit though, it is a struggle at times to choose to do what is right instead of what I want to do. Though, ultimately, I want to be obedient to His call, I also fight against my flesh. Okay, at this point fight may be too strong of a word. It's more like the flesh calls, I say "well..." and then run right to it; whether if it's eating that bowl of ice cream or choosing to sleep in instead of praying. Life is about choices.I will admit, I tend to make some unwise choices. At times, it's as if I'm on auto-pilot because I've made the same unwise choices so many times. But, now the Lord is opening my eyes to this very dilemma. I like the phrasing of verse 14 "Wake up Sleeper." I feel that's what I've been doing - sleeping through part of this life.

I don't want my children to have to learn the lessons of life the hard way - if possible. I mean, for example, I would prefer they learn to live a healthy, active life while they are young, so that it becomes second nature. Not when they are 50 pounds overweight and HAVE to do it because of a health crisis. I want my children to care for others and realize this world does not center around them while they are young as opposed to becoming an adult and throwing a tantrum when they don't get their own way. I am realizing more than ever that I cannot just teach these virtues, character, and lifestyle traits, but I have to model them as well. But the question becomes "How am I going to model these traits?" Am I going to continue making unwise choices and have my children learn from my poor example or am I finally going to look towards the light of Christ and choose what is right? Further down in Ephesians 5:17, Paul writes "Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is." Actually, I like the Amplified version better: "Therefore do not be vague and thoughtless and foolish, but understanding and firmly grasping what the will of the Lord is."

Finally, Proverbs 9:10 says "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom..." I'm beginning to understand that some choices cannot be made while half asleep. I must ask myself "Is this what the Lord wants me to do? Is this the best use of the time He has given me?" It is time to stop sleepwalking.

Knowing God

2011-10-20T23:07:00.000-05:00

"The people who know their God shall be strong and do great things." Daniel 11:32b (TLB)

This is the verse referenced on my artsy, scripture calendar for October. It is a simple, matter-of-fact statement, but at the same time it's powerful. After reading the context of the verse, it holds even more power and yes, conviction.

At first, I believed this verse to mean that if I have faith in the Lord then I can be strong and do great things. While this may be true, this is not the context of the verse. At the time, this was written as a prophecy regarding the future of Israel. It spoke of Antiochus IV Epiphanes and his attack on Jerusalem. When he attacked, he desecrated the temple by sacrificing pigs on an altar he built for Zeus inside the temple. Here is verse 32 (the entire verse): "He shall seduce with flattery those who violate the covenant, but the people who know their God will stand firm and take action." (ESV) Antiochus was able to flatter some people away from the covenant, but the ones who truly loved God and knew God, chose to stand firm in their beliefs and convictions while others took action (the Maccabees).

These people were choosing death instead of desecrating their bodies or abandoning their beliefs because they knew God. They understood his Holiness and how He set them apart. They would rather die than eat unclean pork (at least in one example I read) because they knew this would separate them from the Lord.

Well, once I understood the verse, I wondered how many times have I not stood firm against the enemy? How many times have I chosen to abuse His temple for my selfish wants? How many times have I been seduced by flattery ("Go ahead, you've earned it...")?

Once again, the point has been made - my relationship with the Lord requires and deserves a deeper understanding of Him, which only He can reveal to me. As James 4:8 says "Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you..." (ESV)

What's in a Name?

2011-09-26T22:45:00.000-05:00

One of my favorite songs lately has been Natalie Grant's "Your Great Name." It speaks to the power of the name of Jesus Christ. But what power does His name hold?

We are first introduced to the name of Jesus in Matthew 1:21, with an angel telling Joseph to name the baby Mary is carrying Jesus "because He will save the people from their sins." Jesus means "the LORD saves."

From that moment forward, He is then known as a teacher, a healer, a friend, one who calms the storm, one who casts out demons, raises the dead, feeds 5000 hungry people with five loaves of bread and two fish, one who offers rest, God's chosen Servant, the Son of God, the Son of Man, The Lamb of God. He is known as Immanuel (which means "God with us"), Counselor, the Prince of Peace, Almighty, powerful, Holy One, Lord of Lords, King of Kings, the Lion of Judah - just to name a few.

So much power behind a name, yet some take the name in vain, giving no second thought as to what it means. Some in society even use it more as a "curse" word, when something goes wrong. I wonder, if they realized the power behind the name, would they still use it in vain? I mean, even the demons flee and shudder at the sound of Jesus' name. Jesus was with God in the beginning. He humbled Himself and then died for our sins. On the third day, he was resurrected and now sits at the right hand of God, preparing a place for us.

When I sit and meditate upon the names and descriptions of Jesus, I get goosebumps. His name means so much more than I can ever comprehend in this lifetime. Of course, I do have one name for Jesus that I do comprehend - Savior. That is one I cherish and am most grateful for.

Is it Faith or Religion?

2011-09-06T15:57:00.001-05:00

Isaiah 29:13 - "The Lord says: These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men." (NIV)

Confession time: I've found bits of this verse springing forth in my mind during praise and worship at church because I've been lacking focus. Here's an example of my thought process: "Oh, I like this song! I like the original version better. Hmm, the drums are awfully loud. How many times are we going to repeat the chorus? " Nothing in there about how wonderful God is or how beautiful, holy, forgiving and merciful He is. What's worse, I'll catch myself wandering and try to focus, only to be distracted by my intent to focus. That's when I give up and pray for mercy.

Though my example does not indicate the authenticity of my relationship with the Lord, I do believe this verse addresses a lack of authentic faith - where one claims to be a Christian because s/he shows up and sings the songs and follows the rules, but does not have a meaningful, personal relationship with the Lord.

The Lord desires more than lip service and rule-following from us. He desires a true, authentic relationship with us. If He didn't want that relationship, then He wouldn't have sent His Son to die for our sins. Though only the Lord knows a person's heart, we can at least have insight into our own hearts. Am I following the Lord because my parents did or because I "grew up" in the faith? Or do I follow the Lord because I desire to follow His ways and long for a relationship with Him? When I sing the praise and worship songs in church, am I wanting to bring praise or am I just going with the flow of the service (apparently I'm struggling with this one lately, though I am aware of it now)?

Do I want to follow rules for the sake of following traditon or do I follow the Lord and His ways in service to Him? My prayer is that my walk with the Lord is an authentic faith, not a religion built on man's traditions and lovely, shallow words.

What are your thoughts?

Summer Break

2011-07-21T22:24:00.002-05:00

I guess it's a bit obvious that I am taking a summer break. I've been wanting to write, but a few things popped up, taking my time in a different direction. I do plan on returning though September 6th, so please come back then and check out the blog.

Have a wonderful summer!

Living by the Spirit?

2011-05-31T22:12:00.011-05:00

I recently read Francis Chan's book Forgotten God, which addresses how the church seems to downplay (for lack of a better word) the role of the Holy Spirit. Like his previous book, Crazy Love, this book has me thinking and re-thinking aspects of my faith.

For example, when others look at me, do they see something different about me or do I blend in with the rest of the world? Do I allow the Spirit to do His work or do I insist upon my own way? Am I really living by the Spirit when I don't show love, am impatient, or lack self-control?

I am not doubting my faith, but I am wondering about my daily commitment to it. When I love the Lord with every bit of my being, then His Spirit flourishes. But when I take my focus off of Him and place it on me, then I am quenching the Holy Spirit.

I fully understand Paul's dilemma in Romans 7. Verses 21-23 reads: "So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God's law, 23 but I see another law at work in the member of my body waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members." (NIV) And that's what it feels like - a war.

This is what I've learned so far in order to wage this war. Pray daily or even hourly for focus on the Lord. Submit to the Lord and His ways. Finally, remember the Holy Spirit is my Helper (and your's too) - not to help me achieve my plans, but to help me accomplish the Lord's.

So, the Rapture Didn't Happen...Yet

2011-05-20T11:10:00.006-05:00

1 Thessalonians 5:1 - 2: "Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night..."(NIV)

I am beyond frustrated with groups who claim to know the day and hour of Jesus' return. Jesus himself said "But about that day and hour, no one knows, not even the angels in Heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father." (Matthew 24:36, NIV) I believe Jesus is coming back - I just don't know when. It could be today, tomorrow, or 500 years from now.

Earlier this evening I read an article about the man who predicted the "doomsday" this past weekend. He is now stating he was about five months off and it will occur in October.

Please do not be deceived by false prophets. If someone says they have a word from the Lord or they have solved some theological mystery, then listen to it and test it. First John 4:1 says "My dear friends, don't believe everything you hear. Carefully weigh and examine what people tell you. Not everyone who talks about God comes from God. There are a lot of lying preachers loose in the world." (The Message)

Me, a Hypocrite?

2011-05-04T23:29:00.003-05:00

One of the harder parts of being a parent is constantly setting an example for my children to follow. I find the things I'm constantly asking my children to do are areas I have difficulty in myself. Let me give you an example - cleaning. One day my husband told my oldest to clean her room. When he went to check the room, he walked to her closet. She panicked and said "You didn't say I had to clean my closet!" It turns out she threw her belongings onto the closet floor. Any guesses as to who taught her that little trick?

Cleaning is just one example. I'm more concerned with those areas that truly matter in the end, like loving others, showing mercy, and practicing discipline. I'll admit, I have a bit of guilt with this because I feel like a hypocrite. How can I tell my kids to do something when I can't even do it correctly? It's easy to say "Do as I say, not as I do," but isn't that just an excuse used to justify my actions?

Thankfully, our Heavenly Father is not a hypocrite. He sent His Son to show us how to live. Not tell us, but show us. He said to love our enemies and then He prayed for the people crucifying Him. He said to love the Lord your God with everything we have. He did by praying to His Father everyday and obeying Him by completing His work on earth. He said no greater love existed than for one to die for his friends. He died for us so that we may be saved. Whatever Jesus preached, He did.

The good news is there is no condemnation for those in Christ (Romans 8:1). It doesn't mean I can keep living this way, but it does offer me grace and another chance to live by the Spirit.

Encouragement for Difficult Times

2011-04-05T22:38:00.003-05:00

I recently started reading the information listed in my "Stats" tab on my blogger dashboard. One of the functions of this tab allows me to see what keywords people use in search engines, which in turn leads them to my blog. One of the phrases had to do with Bible verses for difficult times. I didn't think much about it at the time, but with everything going on in the world and in everyday life, I thought maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to list a few verses for encouragement.

Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

Psalm 10:17-18 "You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted; you encourage them, and you listen to their cry, 18 defending the fatherless and the oppressed..."

Romans 5:3-5 "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

Romans 8:31 "What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?"

Romans 15:4 "For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope."

Philippians 2:1-4 "If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4 Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others."

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 "May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, 17 encourage your hearts and strengthen your in every good deed and word."

1 John 4:18-19 "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 19 We love because He first loved us."

While going through a difficult time many years ago, I clung to Romans 5:3-5. God used these verses to give me hope during a time of great loss. Not just hope that I would see my friends again, but more importantly, hope, knowing God had a plan and that He would take these tragedies and turn them for His glory.

I hope you find encouragement in these verses. I would love to hear what verses you use for encouragement.

* All Bible verses listed are from the Hebrew-Greek Key Word Study Bible, (NIV).

Word Study: Will it Survive the Fire?

2011-03-24T21:45:00.003-05:00

1 Corinthians 3:12 - 15: "If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, 13 his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. 14 If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. 15 If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames." (NIV)

To begin with, the foundation referenced in verse 12 is the foundation of Christ (verses 10 and 11). Paul then explains there are two groups of people - those who build using gold, silver, and costly stones and those who build with wood, hay, and straw. Our works add to the foundation of Christ. Those who use gold, silver, and costly stones are the ones staying true to the Word of God. They live for the Lord, do what He wants them to do, love Him with every bit of their being. Their works will survive the fire and they will receive their reward.

The other group, though building on the foundation of Christ, have departed in some sort of way. Maybe their teaching is flawed or their time and gifts wasted. Their works will be destroyed by the fire. They themselves will be saved (because they are building on the foundation of Christ), but their works will not.

One day, all of our works will be put to the test. Will my work survive the fire or am I only adding to it? I pray I'm building with gold, silver, and costly stones, but I know I have some wood, hay, and straw in there. I look back and think about all the time I've wasted not doing what He wants me to do. I've watched tv, surfed the Internet, napped and so on. Don't get me wrong - there are times when we should rest. But the question then becomes am I resting because I'm tired or because I'm bored? Am I obeying the Lord or doing what I want?

I also wonder though if it's more than just doing the works? Verse 13 reads "...and the fire will test the quality of each man's work..." Does "quality" refer to our motives behind our actions? In Matthew Henry's Commentary, he writes "There is a day coming...that will show us our actions in the true light, without covering or disguise." If I do a good deed, but do it for selfish gain, then is it counted as gold or wood? I feel it would be counted as wood, since I was doing it for myself and not for the Lord. I didn't do it for the eternal good, but only for my temporary gain.

In the end, God is the final judge. This verse has me re-thinking some of the things I do though. My prayer is that whatever I do, I do for Him - out of love.

Word Study: I'm Living Like What?!?

2011-03-17T22:29:00.004-05:00

Matthew 23:23 "Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your spices - mint, dill, cumin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law - justice, mercy, and faithfulness..."

I'll just admit it now - I'm guilty of neglecting the more important matters of justice, mercy, and faithfulness.

Last Sunday, my pastor started a series on Jesus. This particular day he spoke of Jesus, the Friend. He used the passage about Zacchaeus (Luke 19) to highlight three types of people: those who are curious and need a clearer view of Jesus, those who show mercy, grace, and compassion like Jesus, and those who hide and distort the true view of Christ. The more he described the group hiding the view of Christ - the religious people - the more uncomfortable I became. Not just because I felt he was talking to me, but because I had the same conviction a few weeks ago.

This past year, I felt I had been going through the motions of my faith. Say prayers with the kids, bless the food, have Bible study with the kids, and so on. Matthew 15:8 says "These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me..." I could easily blame it on the move, or the kids starting school, or my husband almost losing his job. But, those elements are all part of life. And even when we are going through tough times, stressful times, or even joyous times, we are to love the Lord with everything we have. If I saved my worship, and focus, and faithfulness to the Lord for the not-so-bumpy times in life, then chances are they wouldn't happen.

So, if I was going through the motions, then how was I hiding the view of Christ? When I go through the motions I lack grace at times. I get grumpy, impatient, selfish. The character of Christ is hidden.

Thankfully though, God doesn't just go through the motions. He is faithful to me (and you!) despite how I act. His Grace is pure. His Love is unconditional. His Mercies are new everyday. And through His grace, love, and mercy, I pray I become more like a Jesus person - allowing His way to shine through while I step out of the way.

Trusting Him Instead of Freaking Out

2011-03-15T22:37:00.003-05:00

I am a worrier. This is one of many issues the Lord is changing in me.

There are a lot of things to worry about, but I'm learning that if I freak out about everything then I become overwhelmed. In Matthew 6:27, Jesus says "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" I believe worrying takes away from the life the Lord wants me to live. It takes my focus off of Him and places it on material things I have no control over.

I recently read Crazy Love by Francis Chan. Excellent book. In one of the chapters, he writes that when we worry, then we are not trusting God. That hit a nerve. Then I recalled part of a verse (I believe it had more to do with the Holy Spirit bringing it to memory) "...perfect love drives out fear," (1 John 4:18). Finally, a couple of weeks ago, we had a special speaker give the sermon at church. His topic: fear and trusting God. Okay, Lord, I hear You.

I am learning ways of dealing with fear and worry when they appear. I quote scripture to remind myself God is in control, He loves us, and everything works for the glory of the Lord. I also pray more. I pray to surrender my concerns, and I pray for the situation.

I'm not perfect. I still have my moments of worry, but I'm getting better at surrendering those concerns. I'm finding it is better to use my energy to pray instead of freaking out. Prayer is much more effective. And I am seeing results. I feel peaceful, confident, and hopeful. Isn't that how we are supposed to be anyway? Isn't that what the world is supposed to see in us, as Christians? If I'm running around in a chaotic state, then how can the world see His light? What are your thoughts?

Confessions

2011-03-14T23:19:00.002-05:00

To begin with, let me apologize for not posting anything the last six months or so. I started to write a lengthy explanation as to why I haven't been writing or posting anything, but it sounded too much like a lame excuse. Let's just say it involved rebellion, guilt, and finally obedience.

At one point I questioned whether or not I should write anything. I allowed myself to become empty - living my way (which was pretty much in front of the tv after the kids went to bed) and not the Lord's. No church, no regular Bible study, and only a few prayers (when someone needed it).

Next, I felt guilty. I felt like I abandoned you, my reader. Thank you to those of you who stayed.

Finally, after much thought, prayer, repentance and surrender, I feel this is what He wants me to do. Though at times I question whether or not I should write, He has placed this blog on my heart.

In future posts I want to share what the Lord has been doing in my life. Please know that when I write, I do so with the intent to share with you, not as an expert, but as one living the journey. I am not a theologian.

One final note: Thank you Brian, Melyssa, and Denise for your encouraging words. The Lord used them as confirmation.

Word Study Wednesday: Proverbs 31 Woman - Marriage Made in Heaven

2010-08-11T21:25:00.003-05:00

Proverbs 31:11 - 12: "The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. 12 She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life." (ESV)

As a wife, I tuck these verses into my heart. I want my husband to trust me and know I love, support, and respect him. Just as I know he works hard to provide for his family, he needs to know I work as well to take care of his family and provisions. We share common goals and dreams, working to accomplish them together.

But as I re-read these verses, I'm also struck with the similarities between my earthly marriage and the heavenly marriage between Jesus - our groom and us, the church - His bride. Can He trust us and know we mean no harm? Are we, the church, the faithful wife caring for our Groom?

Though the heavenly marriage has not occurred yet, shouldn't we still behave as the loving, faithful bride waiting for her love? I know I haven't. I've been unfaithful seeking false idols. I've done harm to His name at times by living a selfish lifestyle, reflecting my interests and not His. I've worked against Him, at times fighting foolishly against my better judgment.

Who wants an unfaithful, rebellious, selfish spouse? Thankfully, Jesus sees past this. He knows we live in a fallen world, fighting even against ourselves. He still loves us - so much so He died for us. How much more can one love a person?

These verses mean more to me now. They serve not only as a reminder for my marriage, but for my relationship with Jesus as well.

Word Study Wednesday: Introduction to the Proverbs 31 Woman

2010-07-28T16:53:00.004-05:00

For many years now I have admired - and at times resented - the Proverbs 31 woman. She's described as a woman who fears the Lord as well as an excellent wife worth more than precious jewels. The chapter continues to describe her character and her actions. For the next few Word Study Wednesdays, I want to focus on this virtuous woman - comparing her lifestyle to the way we live today. Though written thousands of years ago, I believe we can learn from her.

I've always enjoyed reading about this woman because it gives me an idea of what a godly woman looks like. Though at times we are given glimpses of other women in the Bible, they seem to remain mysterious. This chapter reveals a godly woman's life, which I find interesting.

As I mentioned earlier, I have also resented this woman. It usually occurs during those times where I feel inadequate. She seems like a superhero, doing everything perfectly. I have days where I can barely get my act together.

I want this study to be encouraging and uplifting. I want to look at the Proverbs 31 woman as a role-model or at least an example of how a godly woman lives her life. I don't want to be intimidated by her anymore, only encouraged.

What are your thoughts about the Proverbs 31 woman? I know I am looking forward to delving into her life and gaining insight that will help me on my journey with the Lord.

Word Study: Healing our Land

2010-07-22T13:32:00.003-05:00

Second Chronicles 7:14: "If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land." (ESV)

Let's set the context of this verse: Solomon had finished building the Temple. The Israelites spent 23 days celebrating, feasting, observing the Day of Atonement and the Feast of the Tabernacles to dedicate the temple to Lord. Later, the Lord spoke to Solomon. He told Solomon He had chosen and consecrated the Temple as a "house of sacrifice" and that He would answer the prayers of His people when said in this holy place.

Though these words were spoken thousands of years ago, I believe they still apply today. When I observe our country as a whole, I'm saddened. Vitriol, anger, selfishness, and pride seem to override acts of love, patience, selflessness, and humility. Some degrade themselves by appearing on reality shows requiring them to be humiliated for fame. Others manipulate situations for their own gain. While still others burst into anger when they feel they've been wronged somehow.

I'm just as guilty as the next person. I quickly lose my temper when someone cuts me off in traffic (which is often). I'm sometimes drawn into the spectacle (or is it debacle?) of reality tv. And yes, I'm still guilty of wasting time.

The scary thing is how these shifts in attitudes seemed to have spread. I know greed and pride and other sins have been around since Adam and Eve were thrown out of the Garden. It just seems to be more intense now. It's like a black fog spreading quickly across the land. Maybe it's because we're not spending our days worshipping the Father.

Which leads me to another point that struck me while reading not only this verse, but the verses prior to it. The Israelites spent 23 days dedicating the Temple. Twenty-three days. That's just over three weeks. I am not aware of anything in this day and age where we as Christians are gathered together worshipping and celebrating the Lord for 23 days. Maybe that's where we have it wrong. I mean, yes, we may do something like that on our own as individuals, but I mean collectively (I know people observe Lent, but not every denomination focuses on the fasting and self-reflection. If you know of anything else, I would like to hear about it).

We can't change the world. Only God can. We can be the salt He has asked us to be though. We can live our lives worshipping Him and showing love and patience at all times. We can come together and pray for our country. There is hope when we humble ourselves before the Lord, pray, seek His face, and turn from our wicked ways. He will hear us and He will heal our land.

Word Study Wednesday: Knowledge

2010-07-14T21:23:00.002-05:00

Hosea 4:6a: "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge."

As I grew up, I watched my mom sit down at the kitchen table with her Bible (sometimes with more than one version), concordance, dictionary, commentary, and a notebook and pour through scripture. Later, these skills I learned from my Mom were reinforced by my church. I'm grateful because my mom and my church provided me with tools to gain Godly knowledge.

Why is it important for us to know the Word of the Lord? To begin with, it leads to truth. There are so many misconceptions in the world regarding what the Bible has to say. For example, many believe the saying "God helps those who help themselves" is in the Bible. It's not - this quote is attributed to Benjamin Franklin. How can we truly follow the Lord if we do not know what His word says? If I lived my life trying to help myself, then it would be a flawed endeavor because I am human.

Next, it's important to have Godly knowledge so that we are not misled by the good or bad intentions of others. Hosea 4:6 originally applied to the Israelite priests (God was admonishing them for leading His people astray), but I feel it applies to all of us now. How many people have been led astray because they lacked knowledge and followed those who claimed to have knowledge? In Luke 11:52, Jesus admonishes the lawyers (according to my footnote in my ESV Bible, it is another phrase for the "scribes of the pharisees") who have taken the "key of knowledge" away from others. According to the Matthew Henry Commentary, these lawyers perverted the scriptures by adding their own interpretations.

Finally, knowledge is a supplement to our faith. Second Peter 2:5-7 says: "For this very reason make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, 6 and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, 7 and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love." Peter continues in verse 8 explaining that these virtues keep us from being "unfruitful in the knowledge" of Jesus. I know I want to live a fruitful life (see my previous post about The Pruning Season) and knowing and living the way God wants me to will help me accomplish this.

He gives us knowledge and wisdom when we seek Him (Proverbs 2), but we have to be active participants. It makes us wise to those who may try to lead us astray and it adds to our faith. It keeps us fruitful and it brings us closer to the Lord. I pray we gain knowledge so that we are not destroyed.

Word Study Wednesday: Wasting Time

2010-07-07T21:24:00.003-05:00

I recently started reading Donald Miller's Blue Like Jazz. I haven't read that much yet, but so far it is an interesting read. One part though has stood out because it seems to apply to me: wasting time. Miller claims it's the devil's greatest way of derailing us from our purpose. I agree. I quickly lose focus on my purpose because I get distracted by little things that have no eternal value. I'm talking about checking email when I should be folding laundry (folding laundry is a service to my family) or watching tv instead of writing. Think about it - if my purpose is to write and glorify God with my writing and I'm watching television instead, is God glorified?

Paul warned the Ephesians about wasting time as well. In Ephesians 5:14b - 16, it says: "'Awake, o sleeper, and arise from the dead and Christ will shine on you.' Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil." (ESV)

I like the way Matthew Henry's Commentary explains it: "Our time is a talent given us by God for some good end, and it is misspent and lost when it is not employed according to his design." (Matthew Henry's Commentary; pg. 1856) That brings me more than a twinge of guilt for all of the time I have wasted. We must take advantage of the time the Lord has given us.

As I mentioned in an earlier post, I got stuck in a routine that did not include my full purpose. After our move, I truly understood the meaning of "Awake o sleeper..." I felt as if I had been sleepwalking through life. That is not how the Lord wants us to live. He wants us to worship Him, fellowship with Him and others, walk with Him, with purpose and intent. He wants us awake to enjoy the grace He has bestowed upon us and to share it with others. He wants us to see the hurt others carry and do something to alleviate their burdens. He wants us to laugh and play with our children. He wants our hearts and our full attention.

The enemy wants to distract us from our true purpose. Let us be wise to his ways and be prepared for battle. Let us also be awake - no battles are won while sleeping.

Finally Settled and Chasing Discipline

2010-07-07T09:12:00.004-05:00

Boxes are unpacked and items are put away - finally! Our house is looking more like a home now. This move has been an enlightening experience and I admit to feeling overwhelmed a few times.

The need for discpline has hit me again. By nature, I procrastinate. I set things aside and tell myself I will handle them later. This is not news to me. As we cleaned closets, drawers, and cabinets before putting our home on the market, I realized how my procrastination has spun out of control. Several times I wanted to quit and melt into a puddle instead of dealing with the mountain of junk. If I had been disciplined in dealing with my stuff at the time, instead of putting it aside, I wouldn't have stressed myself out (moving is stressful enough without adding to it).

This past year has been a lesson in discipline and how I lack it. I'll be honest - my undisciplined life has led me to unhappiness and unnecessary stress. My lack of discipline with eating and exercise has led me to being overweight and lacking energy. My lack of discipline in managing my household has led to a cluttered home offering no respite from the world, but only more stress. The worst part is, my lack of discipline not only affects me, but my family as well.

Hebrews 12:11 says: "For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it." (ESV) I admit I do not like exercising and I do not like cleaning. But I know if I do these things then I will be healthy and my home will be a comfortable home, offering rest not stress.

Discipline is not elusive, but rather challenging since it requires discpline to practice discipline. So here is my action plan - pray, pray, pray. If the Lord wants me to have discipline, then I will have it. All it requires on my part is a daily surrender of my self and faith in Him.

Are there any areas in your life requiring discipline? Or, are you one of those who practices discipline? If so, could you share some of your ideas and tips to help those of us lacking discipline?

A Little Disconnected

2010-06-08T10:45:00.003-05:00

Well, I've done it again. I've let life's changes interrupt my spiritual life. Don't get me wrong - I've prayed and thanked God for several things, but I still feel disconnected. And it shows. I am quickly angered by little things. My patience level is low. The words out of my mouth are not loving, but rather snippy. My thoughts consist more of to-do lists instead of meditations on the Lord.

Throughout scripture, we are reminded to remember the Lord - His deeds, miracles, commands, and words. When I've read these scriptures in the past, I've thought to myself, "well, of course, who could forget the Lord?" Now I know from experience. It's not that I've forgotten about Him, but I've neglected Him. Through my negligence though, I have forgotten to praise Him when times are tough and to pray to Him through a difficult situation. At one point this week, I even asked myself "what's wrong with me?" That's when the Spirit reminded me - "You haven't been seeking the Lord."

In Numbers 15:38 - 40, the Israelites are commanded to "make tassels on the corners of your garments with a blue cord on each tassel. You will have these tassels to look at and so you will remember all the commands of the LORD, that you may obey them...(NIV)" That gives me an idea - make something to physically remind me of the LORD and his commands and to stay connected.

Staying connected requires more than just a reminder though, it requires work on my part. I need to set apart time for prayer and worship, meditation on the LORD and His words, and reflection. I need to do what Brother Lawrence did - practice the presence of God. I need to seek the Lord.

I can't wait for my life to settle down before practicing His presence because life may never settle down. In fact, as the past few weeks have shown me, I need to stay connected to the Lord at all times. Otherwise it's not pretty.

Turned Upside Down

2010-06-02T10:28:00.006-05:00

Two and a half years ago, my family and I relocated to another state. This was a difficult move during a difficult time. Of course, like most people, I questioned the wisdom of this move. Two and a half years later, I thank the Lord for His wisdom.

When I decided to stay home and raise my children (two years before the move), I stopped writing. Actually, I was burned out. I figured writing was something I did before kids and I was fine with that conclusion. Looking back, I realize I slipped into a rut. I got stuck in the daily routine. Running errands, doing chores around the house, paying bills, and so on. I didn't notice this though until we moved.

Relocating to Colorado in December 2007 definitely shook me out of my routine. It forced me to leave my comfort zone and meet new people. I no longer had extended family nearby to help me with the kids. I also had to learn how to drive in snow and find new routes. I had to find new places to shop for groceries and clothes. Most importantly, I realized, through lots of prayer, that I wasn't living my entire purpose. Yes, God made me to be a wife and a mother, but He also created me to write. That is the talent He gave me. When reviewing Proverbs 31, I noticed the woman completed her purpose. She was a wife and a mom, but she also used her talents to help her family (see Proverbs 31:16 and 24).

As a result, I joined a writer's group, started a year-long review of the creative writing process, started this blog, and even submitted an article for publication (though it wasn't accepted). I even joined the madness of NaNoWriMo and tried to write a 50,000-word novel in a month.

Now, we have moved back to where we were originally. The past few months have been a bit chaotic, and I look forward to setting a routine. I know routine is a good thing (particularly with kids), but I need to be awake for the process. I even need to shake it up now and then to avoid settling. I carry the lessons I learned in Colorado and am excited about applying them here. I feel my passion for writing again. It took a move to another state to shake up my life and I'm grateful for it.

I'm Back - For A Little Bit

2010-05-27T09:27:00.004-05:00

I wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten about you. We are in the process of relocating from one state to another and it has taken more of my time than I thought it would. We are out of one house and waiting to move into another. Meanwhile, we are staying with family. Prayerfully, the process will be complete by mid-June.

I am thankful for this move. It brings us much closer to family and old friends. I'm also sad though as I had to leave new friends. It's moments like these that I'm thankful for our current technology. Though I can not meet my friends face-to-face for coffee, I can use Skype and drink coffee while web-chatting. It's almost the same thing - just missing the hugs.

I plan on posting a few more times before the move into the new house. I've missed blogging (and writing in general) and hearing from you quite a bit. Just a head's up though - I will probably take a couple of weeks off when we move so I can focus on bringing order to my house. Please be patient with me.

Thanks for your understanding!

Tending to Personal Issues

2010-03-16T10:02:00.003-05:00

I have decided to take a break from posting for awhile. We have had some stuff come up that needs my attention. It's nothing major like illness or anything, but it still requires a lot of my time. I hope to be blogging again within the next month, so please check back soon.

God bless you,
Joanna

Road to Health, Part 2: Health Food vs. Diet Food

2010-02-19T22:39:00.004-06:00

Throughout the twists and turns of my journey to health, I hit a fork in my road. Do I want to just be skinny or do I want to be healthy?

A couple of years ago, I joined a weight-loss support group. This certain group also sold their own food in grocery stores. My favorite was their snack cakes. If I ate really well, I could eat two or three snack cakes. One day, I decided to read the ingredients in these tasty morsels and was shocked at what they contained. Sugar, partially hydrogenated oils, enriched, bleached flour, and so on. This seemed to contradict the information they were teaching in their meetings. It also contradicted what a lot of nutritionists were teaching as well.

Too much sugar can lead to diabetes. Partially hydrogenated oils clog arteries and raise cholesterol levels. Enriched, bleached flour has no nutritional value and can also lead to diabetes. Were these little snack cakes worth my health?

That's when I made my decision to be healthy. I've been far from perfect, but now I'm conscious of it. I've been looking at different ways of eating - low-carb, high-protein, vegetarian, and so on. I think I've come across a way of eating that will benefit myself as well as my family. It's called "clean eating." Basically, you eat fruits, veggies, whole grains, nuts, seeds, beans, and lean meats. They should be minimally processed and no artificial anything added. It's a new way of eating and like I said, I'm not perfect. It's a slow process, but I have seen results when I do stick to the clean eating plan. I lost weight and my skin cleared up. I had more energy and was ready to start the day, instead of waking up groggy. Now that I'm feeling better, I plan to resume this plan.

What's your opinion regarding health food and diet food? I'd love to hear it.

The Road to Health Part 1: What Health is to Me

2010-02-14T15:16:00.002-06:00

After being sick for the past two and a half weeks, I've had plenty of time to think about health. In times of frustration, I even thought about bargaining with God: "If you make me well, I will do more to be healthy." I stopped short of making the bargain because I fear failure. Maybe it's not really a fear, I just know from my past that I usually fail at this task.

And that's where my problem is: I depend upon myself and not the Lord. I'm learning that health has to do more with my total package: spirit, mind, and body. I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm stressed, angry, and depressed. A vicious pattern occurs when I emotionally eat. I feel some emotion, so I eat to numb myself. Then I feel guilty for eating, and eat again. What's wrong with this picture? Aren't I, as a Christian, supposed to depend on the Lord for my strength and comfort? Instead, I take matters into my own hands, with disastrous results.

Here is what it looks like to depend on the Lord: Once I relay my feelings to the Lord, my mental state will change because my spirit feels peace. Once I feel peace, then I will no longer feel anxious and want to eat. I may still have some of the emotional energy left, but that is when I should go for a walk and pray.

I know, easier said than done. This is my thought though: Just as my vicious pattern of emotional eating became a habit, then after some conscious effort and lots of prayer, the new spiritual pattern should become a habit as well. The Word of God offers me hope: "Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established," (Proverbs 16:3). Also, Proverbs 16:9 says "The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps." You see, if I dedicate myself and my plans to the Lord, He will establish my path for me. One more bit of encouragment comes from Psalm 118:7: "The LORD is on my side as my helper."

Health to me is no longer the idea of looking great in a pair of skinny jeans. Rather it is being physically, mentally, and most importantly spiritually healthy in the Lord. It is allowing myself to feel my emotions and handle them in a spiritually mature manner. A mountainous journey lies ahead, but I know the Lord will not only set my path for me, He will be there every step of the way, helping me overcome my obstacles.

The Road to Health: A New Series

2010-02-09T19:38:00.004-06:00

I am starting a new series about health. I've been researching topics regarding health and food and am trying to apply some of these principals to my family's way of life. I want to explore the responsibilities, if any, a Christian has in taking care of her body. I also want to discuss preventative healthcare vs. our current way of looking at healthcare.

I've battled with my weight for numerous years. When I was younger, I wanted to lose weight so I would look like the skinny models in the fashion magazines. Now I want to lose weight for other reasons - health, energy, and obedience. I also want to model healthy eating habits for my children so they won't grow up with the same issues.

I look forward to sharing this information with you. I also look forward to hearing your thoughts as well.

Word Study: Jealous

2010-02-03T19:49:00.006-06:00

Exodus 34:14 "(for you shall worship no other god, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.)"

Jealous: from the Hebrew word "qana" meaning "zealous or jealous" (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance).

This is one of those instances where it is important to understand the original meaning of the word in order to fully comprehend its context. I've heard some people (including a famous talk show host) say that verses like this mean God is jealous of us. Really? I sincerely want to ask "Why? Why would our Creator be jealous of us?"

The answer is He is not jealous of us, but rather for us. He loves us so much that He wants to be number one in our heart just as we are in His. He loves us so much, He sent His Son to die for us.

I find it interesting that the Hebrew word also connotates "zealous." According to Dictionary.com, zealous means "ardently active, devoted." Synonyms include enthusiastic, eager, and passionate. God is passionate for us. He is devoted to us. Of everything I know about the LORD (and trust me, I have plenty to learn still), this explanation of His jealousy is in tune with who He is.

This is just an example of why it is important to learn the original context of scripture before dismissing it. More people would live in truth and know who God truly is instead of a misconception.

I Know I Haven't Been Posting Much

2010-01-28T18:00:00.002-06:00

I'd like to apologize for not posting very many posts lately. I've been writing, but it's been more personal, causing me to reflect more upon myself than anything. I'm saying good-bye to strongholds, which is hard to do to at times. I relate to Paul's dilemma in Romans 7:15 "For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." Thankfully, it is not hopeless, because he writes in Romans 8:15 "For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, 'Abba! Father!'" Amen! to that is all I can say.

Anyway, I do plan on resuming my Word Studies this week. Thanks for hanging in there with me. I hope you are all doing well.

Praying for Haiti

2010-01-17T22:11:00.003-06:00

As most of you know, a major earthquake devastated Haiti this past week. Thousands perished, and many more are left with limited food, water, and medical attention. My prayer for Haiti is for these conditions to be remedied quickly. I also pray more survivors are found.

The generosity inspired by this tragedy is heartwarming. Just when you think the world is a dark, lonely place, people come through with giving - either of themselves, with supplies or financially.

This is a time to pray for Haiti, not a time to curse it. A time to put the spotlight on the suffering and poverty enveloping this country. This is a time to live Christ's example - not with condemnation, but with love. And not with self-congratulatory giving, but with love.

Enough said.

Word Study: Discipline and Correction

2010-01-13T21:53:00.004-06:00

Proverbs 3:11 - 12: "My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction; For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he
delighteth." (KJV)

The Hebrew word for "chastening" in verse 11 is muwcar (pronounced moo-sawr). It means "chastisement, warning, instruction, discipline, and rebuke" (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance).

In verse 12, the Hebrew word for "correcteth" is yakach (pronounced yaw-kahh) and it means "chasten, correct, rebuke."

My son stood there, arms crossed with a defiant look on his face. "No!" he yelled.

"Excuse me? You don't tell me no," I said sternly.

"No!" he shouted again.

"Get in the corner," I said, trying to maintain my sense of calm.

"No!"

I picked him up, as he started kicking and screaming, and placed him in the corner. If only he would listen to me and do what I say, life would be easier.

Then God reminded me of the many times I've thrown a tantrum and screamed "No!" Yes, if only I would listen to God and do what He says, then my life would be easier.

I want my children to grow up with a sense of right and wrong. I want them to respect my authority as a parent. I have only the best interests of my children at heart. This is true for God as well. He is our Abba - our Heavenly Father - who knows what is best for us. Yet, there are times I still refuse to listen and go my own way, which only leads to trouble.

Another part of verse 11 may be hard to take - "neither be weary of his correction." In essence, do not despise his correction, ignore it, or complain about it. I like the following explanation:

"...we must not be weary of it, for he knows our frame, both what we need and what we can bear. A fatherly correction comes not from his vindictive justice as a Judge, but his wise affection of a Father."*

His discipline comes from the heart of a parent, not a judge, and for that I am grateful. If his discipline came from the heart of a judge, then I would receive justice - which would be separation from God and mostly likely death. But since his discipline comes from the heart of a parent, then I am shown grace and compassion.

Next time my son throws a tantrum, I'm sure I'll be reminded of God's grace through discipline. I'll also thank him for loving me as his child.

* Matthew Henry's Commentary, copyright 1961 Zondervan

So, How's Your New Year Going?

2010-01-10T00:43:00.002-06:00

I'll admit, I've been sluggish this past week. I went from two weeks of entertaining, celebrating, and relaxing to teaching, exercising, chauffering, and so on. Yes, I've been doing a lot, but my mind hasn't been focused on it. I've had to force myself to do some things (like exercise). I'm sure it doesn't help that I'm writing a blog post late at night, but here I am.

My weekend has been nice so far. My hubby and I spent some time together last night playing games. Today included great conversation with a friend, cuddle time with my kids, and a bit of peace and quiet for myself. Tomorrow begins another week of busy-ness, but I've decided to use prayer to help me through it. After thinking about this past week, I realized I tried to do everything on my own. Why must I learn this lesson over and over and over?

So, that's my new year so far. What about you? I pray all is well.

Word Study: Steadfast

2010-01-06T17:28:00.004-06:00

2 Chronicles 27:6 "Jotham grew powerful because he walked steadfastly before the LORD his God."

I read this verse in a book I'm currently studying. I stopped and made a note of the word "steadfastly," because I wanted to know the Biblical application of this word and apply it to my life. Granted, I'm not looking to become powerful enough to rule a nation, but I would like to be powerful in areas of my life.

Dictionary.com defines "steadfast" as "firm in purpose, resolution, or faith. Unwavering."

The KJV of this verse uses the phrase "prepared his ways" in place of "steadfast." The Hebrew word for "prepared" is "kuwn" and it means "establish, fix, set, prepare, apply," (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance).

The Hebrew word for "ways" is "derek" and it means "a course of life or mode of action; a journey."

When read together, these definitions become powerful to me. I am steadfast when I establish my journey before the LORD. It is an action I do with purpose. I may not know what the LORD has planned for me, but I can set my course of life according to His purpose.

As a result of standing firm in my faithful journey, I will become powerful in Him. The Hebrew word for powerful is "chazaq" and it means "strong, courageous." So, though I may encounter challenging, fearful times, if I choose to walk steadfastly with the LORD, He will make me strong and courageous.

This is encouraging. Another encouraging verse is Proverbs 3:6. It says "In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." I need to leave my ego behind and acknowledge the LORD in all my "ways" (the same definition applies). I have issues in my life that I've held onto because I figure I can handle them. Yet, here I am, years later, still battling these issues - without success. I need to acknowledge the LORD in every way, remain steadfast in my faith, and He will make me powerful and courageous enough to overcome these strongholds.

What about you? Do you have areas in your life where you need to acknowledge the LORD? Are you walking steadfastly before the LORD? What's holding you back?

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T12:51:00.002-06:00

Happy New Year to everyone! May "the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you," (Numbers 6:25). I pray we all grow closer to the Lord and experience His presence daily.

Goals, Not Resolutions

2009-12-30T23:20:00.004-06:00

As 2009 comes to an end, I've decided to view 2010 differently. Instead of making new year's resolutions, I've decided to set attainable goals. My thought process is this: Resolutions are easily broken - in fact, they are almost expected to be broken within a matter of weeks. Goals are not easily broken. Yes, I may fail to have a quiet time one day or indulge in sugar, but at least I can start over and move on.

One more difference between resolutions and goals - at least the way I see it - is this: I write down my resolutions, but that's it. When I'm thinking about my goals, I apply more thought to them and plan. This is an important first step in achieving my goals. In March, I posted a blog about procrastination. In it I mentioned three steps Joshua used to help the Israelites possess their promised land. I believe these three steps are beneficial in helping me achieve my goals.

First, I must have a plan of attack for my goals. For example, if I want to lose weight, then I need to allot time in my schedule for exercise and meal planning.

Second, I must allow others to hold me accountable. My husband is helping me with the health goals, as he wants to be healthy as well. I talk and pray weekly with a friend regarding our family and ministry goals.

Third, and this is the most important one, I must dedicate my plans to the Lord. I want my plans to be His plans. I've already prayed for wisdom to know the difference.

What about you? Have you thought about your goals for the new year?

I pray the Lord blesses each and everyone of you. I also pray all of us grow closer to the Lord and become the salt and light He wants us to be.

Word Study: Perseverance

2009-12-10T13:53:00.003-06:00

1 Corinthians 9:24 - 27: "Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. 25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26 Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27 No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."

Lately, there are times where I want to give up. Give up writing, healthy eating, exercising, and training the new dog (he's an adult with puppy tendencies). My slothful, gluttonous self would rather plop down in front of the television eating pizza and chocolate. But God has called me to a higher purpose (thankfully). He wants me to persevere during this race. I know the word "perseverance" does not appear in any of those verses, but the idea of perseverance does.

According to the Holman Bible Dictionary "perseverance" means to "maintain the Christian faith through the trying times." I believe trying times can be anything from battling my old self to experiencing suffering. It's during those times of wanting to be slothful and gluttonous that I choose to persevere in my faith.

Perseverance requires focus. Paul wrote that we are running to gain an eternal crown. I must keep my focus on what the prize is at the end of the race. If I lose sight of the prize, then I lose the reason for running this race.

Perseverance requires a plan. Paul says he does not run as one who runs aimlessly, which implies to me he has a plan. He knows the track and stays on course. This is what I must do, not only for the areas of my life, but for my life in general. For example, I not only plan a wholesome menu to become healthy, but I plan to be healthy the rest of my life in order to accomplish what the Lord has set before me. Of course, no one knows the track better than the One who planned it, so prayer is a necessity to determine where I should go.

Finally, perseverance requires discipline. Paul mentions beating his body and making it a slave. I see this as an example of becoming a servant to God and putting to death my old ways. He also mentions going into strict training. This is where discipline needs perseverance. If I don't persevere in disciplining myself, then my old habits are going to creep back in, replacing the new habits.

I'm not perfect with perseverance -far from it. But now that I have a new understanding of these verses, I pray I can put these points into practice and persevere during all types of trials and suffering. What are your thoughts?

The End of NaNoWriMo

2009-12-01T11:52:00.003-06:00

Yesterday marked the end of NaNoWriMo. No, I did not meet my word challenge, but I don't feel like I failed, either. My NaNoWriMo journey ended with 13,278 words written (out of 50,000) - and not one of them were nonsense words to fill the page (although at one point I stopped using contractions).

Earlier, I posted what NaNoWriMo was teaching me (click here). Now that I've completed the project, I still agree with what I wrote, but I've learned other things as well.

To begin with, I enjoyed writing my piece of fiction. Each day, as I wrote, I could see the story coming together. I could see my flaws (characters need to be more dimensional, use more descriptions of places, and so on). Finally, I realized I can actually write a novel, slowly.

At one point I finally decided to have fun with the novel and not take it so seriously. After all, it was just my first draft. I can always edit - later. Which is what I'll do at some point in the near future (right now I want to focus on a different writing project).

All in all, I enjoyed the challenge and the learning process. I may do this again next year, I may not. It depends on what is happening in my life at the time. But, yet again, this challenge proved to me that I want to write.

Happy Thanksgiving!

2009-11-26T13:14:00.002-06:00

I want to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving!

NaNoWriMo Update

2009-11-18T18:38:00.004-06:00

I'm a bit behind on my NaNoWriMo word count. Okay, I'm really behind, but I'm learning quite a few things.

Lesson #1: Novel writing is harder than I thought (not that I thought it was a walk through a park). Though I am, for the most part, an intuitive writer (meaning I just sit down and write what's in my head), I may benefit from an outline. This takes me back to a fifth grade project where I had to write a required outline for my report on President Andrew Jackson (I think I used the entire eraser on my erasable pen). I couldn't wait to finish the outline so that I could write the paper. Now, as I write my novel, I'm wishing I had taken the time to complete an outline. There's got to be a balance there somewhere.

Lesson #2: At this particular point in my life, a full-length novel may not be my path. Novel writing takes a lot of focus, at least for me. I'm also focused on my family and the many facets of our life. I have a habit of thinking I can do everything, but then really end up doing nothing well. I'm beginning to think devotionals, articles and short stories may be the way for me to go.

Lesson #3: It is possible to dial back my internal editor. One of the purposes of NaNoWriMo is to have writers put their words to paper without editing. Whenever I get the strong urge to go back and edit a scene I have to tell, or at times yell, to myself "I don't care - just write!" This is a huge step for a former tech writer whose internal editor was continually turned on to high.

These are the things I've learned about myself so far. I'm not sure if I will make my word count for the contest, but I'm still trying. Even if I don't meet the word count, I'm still glad I accepted the challenge. It has been an eye-opening experience for me.

NaNo-What-O?

2009-11-05T10:34:00.003-06:00

I decided to accept the challenge. I think I'm crazy, but right now, who cares. I'm hoping this challenge will help me develop perseverance, confidence, and mad writing skills. This challenge is called "NaNoWriMo" - it stands for National Novel Writing Month. The goal is to write a 50,000 word novel during the month of November. The prize is knowing I tried. Really.

Honestly, I haven't written much since May. Actually, other than journaling here and there and a weekly blog post, I haven't been writing. The summer, full of travel, organizing, researching, and planning other endeavors, didn't provide me the mental opportunity to write. So, I gave myself permission not to write for awhile.

By September, I missed writing - so much so I felt it in my soul. I decided the NaNoWriMo challenge provided the perfect introduction to writing again. I'll admit, I waivered a bit. Okay, I waivered the whole month of October. I overwhelmed myself with thoughts like "I'm too busy," "I feel overwhelmed," and "What if I don't write 50,000 words?" Finally, I decided "Who cares?" Yes, I'm busy, but if I'm organized, I can do it. So what if I don't meet the word count? I would still write more than if I didn't do the challenge. It just took me a while to reach these conclusions. I signed up for NaNoWriMo October 28 - four days before the contest started. I'm glad I did though. Five days into the challenge, and I'm enjoying it. I'm also finding myself a bit more organized in order to fit everything into the day.

I'll keep you updated on my progress throughout the month. Not just word count, but how I'm feeling about the challenge. Who knows what will be next after the month of November. Maybe I'll edit and rewrite my novel or maybe I'll move on to nonfiction. Either way, I already feel encouraged through this process and I know it will only bring good things.

Word Study: Temple of God

2009-11-04T21:17:00.005-06:00

I Corinthians 3:16 - 17: "Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? 17 If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple."

This is one of my memory verses from earlier this year. I used it to remind myself not to be so gluttonous. Let's just say I've lost focus a few times. Of course, this verse can apply to anything that may damage the body, which goes against God's will. We are His creation, made in His image. And now that we've been sanctified through the blood of Christ, we are sacred. Our actions should reflect the character of Christ.

I know I look at my ways and sometimes feel overwhelmed with the task of controlling them. The good news though is that the Spirit of God dwells within me and when I focus on Him, then I have self-control, since it is a fruit of the Spirit.

Why is it important for me to remember that the Spirit of the Lord lives in me? Because I am to be the salt of the earth, an example of God's love, grace, and redemption. If I'm living according to my own desires, then what difference will the world see? Why would they want to follow God if I'm still a slave to my own desires? Also, knowing that the Spirit of the Lord lives in me reminds me of the sacrifice made for my life and how sacred that sacrifice was.

Word Study: Sanctification

2009-10-21T21:32:00.004-05:00

Leviticus 20: 7 -8: "Consecrate yourselves therefore, and be holy, for I am the LORD your God. 8 Keep my statutes and do them; I am the LORD who sanctifies you."

Romans 6:22: "But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the fruit you get leads to sanctification and its end, eternal life." (ESV)

Sanctification, according to the Holman Bible Dictionary, means "the process of being made holy resulting in a changed lifestyle for the believer." Sanctification is a process where the end result is a holy, eternal life spent with the Lord.

How do we live a sanctified life? We must dedicate ourselves to being holy, to carry out the Lord's will, to follow Christ. We need to turn away from our sinful lifestyles and live a life consecrated to God.

Romans 6:22 speaks of fruit leading to sanctification. If we become slaves of God and imitate Christ, then, I believe, the fruit leading to sanctification is the fruit of the Spirit. "Love, joy, peace patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control" (Galatians 5:22) are all of Christ's traits. As I write this, I am becoming more aware of the work of the Trinity - God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit - in the process of sanctification.

Sanctification is one of those words I have heard over and over in church rhetoric, but really never gave any thought to - until recently. I was speaking with a friend who is truly dedicating herself to sanctification. Listening to her talk about everything she's going through - sacrifice, self-control, dedication, and more importantly a closer walk with the Lord - made me think about my life. Am I truly a slave to God or am I serving my own purpose? Last week, I spoke about my season of pruning, and I feel this is one of those areas God is working on to bring me to a closer relationship with Him.

What are your thoughts about sanctification? Are you living a life consecrated to God or serving your own purpose? Please feel free to comment.

Word Study: The Pruning Season

2009-10-15T10:54:00.004-05:00

Ecclesiastes 3:1: "For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven." (ESV)

I am entering a new season in my life. A time for me to cut back on my activities and focus even more on my children, particularly since I am homeschooling them. I am enjoying this new season - teaching and watching my children learn how to read, write, and add. I am overjoyed when I hear them recite their memory verses each week - sacred scripture to help them live their lives for the Lord.

I am a little hesitant about this season as well, because I know pruning is involved. Yesterday, we had our trees pruned. At first, I thought the tree-trimmers were trimming too much off of the trees, but once I viewed the end result, I loved it. No longer broken and unruly, they are healthy and nicely shaped. I know this is what the Lord wants for me. He wants me to be whole, and not broken; healthy, and not diseased. I'm a little hesitant because I don't want to feel pain. He's already bringing up past insecurities and rejections to the surface and I don't like the emotions accompanying them. But if this is His will, then so be it.

Jesus says in John 15:2 "Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit." I would rather be pruned and bear more fruit than to be "gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned." (verse 6).

Enter faith. I have faith in my Lord. I know He is pruning me out of love so that I may be productive for His purpose. How do I know this? Romans 8:28 says "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose." Also, Philippians 1:6 says "And I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."

I know in my heart this pruning is what is best for me. It will loose strongholds keeping me from His work and better prepare me for His purpose. I also know in those times of sadness, anger, and reflection, He will be there for me, comforting me along the way.

Word Study: Can You Hear Him?

2009-10-08T15:04:00.004-05:00

1 Kings 19:11 - 13: "The LORD said, 'Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by.' Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave."

When Elijah heard the gentle whisper, he knew he was in the presence of the LORD. I'm not so sure I would have reacted the same way. I probably would have expected Him in the wind, the earthquake, and the fire because He is a mighty God.

Recently, my aunt, uncle, cousin and her husband stayed the night with us. As my aunt and I were talking, I could also hear my husband's conversation with my uncle a few feet away from us. I had to focus more on my aunt's quieter voice and block out the men's louder voices. I then realized I need to do the same thing with the LORD because He does speak in a still, small voice. I need to block out life's noises, such as politics, tv, or anything else distracting, and focus on Him.

I'll admit I haven't been focusing on God like I should. I've let life interfere. I've drowned out His voice with my own and as a result, I feel empty. The good news though is that He is waiting for me to turn my attention to Him. I can't wait to hear what He has to say.

What about you? Do you hear the gentle whisper or just the noise?

The Lost Art of Rhetoric

2009-10-03T11:18:00.003-05:00

As part of my English degree, I was required to take a course on Rhetoric. The professor had us review speeches and writings from the past and analyze whether or not they were effective. I took it as a quick summer class and really haven't thought much about it - until recently.

Dictionary.com defines rhetoric as "the ability to use language effectively; the art of making persuasive speeches." After watching clips of town hall meetings and the responses from our elected officials, I wonder if more could have been achieved with better rhetoric.

I understand many people are filled with concern for America and the direction it appears to be going in (for example: years of debt passed on to our children and grandchildren). I am as well. I also understand people are angry because they feel their voices are not being heard, or worse, ignored, by our politicians. I feel that way, too. We cannot give in though to the impulse of our anger. It is not effective speech when we confront our politicians with name-calling and finger-pointing. Once that starts, the politician will be offended enough not to listen. It is more effective to approach them in a calm manner and present them with the facts and concerns.

Now, as far as the politicians are concerned: they are not winning people over with their name-calling either. Referring to their constituents who disagree with them as "mobs" or "astroturf" or "un-American" only stokes the anger a lot of people are feeling. They are not a doing a good job of presenting the facts to Americans and calming their fears.

So, what can we do? Gather facts and write your representatives and senators with your concerns. Treat them as you would want to be treated - with respect. Use your right to protest - but peacefully. Also, vote. Finally, pray. Pray for our elected officials. Pray they will open their ears to their constituents and that they will turn away from corruption and selfish-deeds.

I wonder when history and rhetoric courses look back at this moment in time, if they will find any inspiring speeches spoken by a true leader ready to work with Americans instead of against them.

Word Study Wednesday: Sin

2009-09-30T16:30:00.002-05:00

Do I take sin seriously? Am I dealing with sin in my life? I've been reflecting on these questions quite a bit lately.

I understand that sin is a an act of rebellion on my part against God. Sin separates me from Him. I also comprehend the seriousness of sin since God sent Jesus to die for our sins.

My sin not only affects me, but those around me as well. I'll use my sin of gluttony for example. When I overeat, I am mistreating my body - God's temple. The more I overeat, the unhealthier I become. When I am unhealthy, I am not at my best to deal with my responsibilities, let alone opportunities. I'm just too tired. I then become sick and unable to give 100% to God and my family.

When I pray for forgiveness of my sin, what are my expectations? Do I reflect upon my sin and ask the Lord for help? Or do I expect Him to wave a wand and *poof* the sin is gone never to bother me again? When the Israelites celebrated Yom Kippur or Day of Atonement, they took it seriously. They fasted and stopped working for the duration while the High Priest performed the ritual, which included sacrifice, burning of incense, and confession in the Temple. They used this day to renew their covenant with the Lord.

Second Chronicles 7:14 says "If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." The original context of this verse is God's answer to Solomon's prayer of dedication. In the prayer, Solomon asked the Lord to hear His people. This was God's response. I believe it is just as applicable today as it was then.

Asking forgiveness of sin is more than "please forgive me." It requires action on my part as I turn away from my sin and constantly seek the Lord's face. Thankfully, through the sacrifice of Jesus, He hears me. He helps me through the Holy Spirit. He desires the restored relationship. For this is the abundant life.

No Word Study Wednesday Today

2009-09-23T10:23:00.003-05:00

I won't be posting a Word Study Wednesday today. I'm hoping to be up and blogging within the next couple of days. Thank you for your patience.

Word Study Wednesday: False gods and Idols

2009-09-16T18:14:00.008-05:00

Exodus 20:6 "You shall have no other gods before me."

This verse is part of the Ten Commandments. Sadly enough, while God dictated these words to Moses, the rest of the Israelites grew impatient and fashioned their own god - a golden calf. Despite escaping from Egypt and miraculously crossing the Red Sea, the Israelites lost their faith in the one true God.

I've been reflecting on the way I live my life lately and one of the questions I keep asking myself is if I have any false gods or idols in my life. No, I do not have any carved or gilded statues in my house, but there are other ways of worshipping a false god or idol.

The Hebrew word for "gods" is "elohiym" (pronounced el-o-heem) and it simply means "God or gods." (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance).

The Hebrew word for "idol" is "eliyl" (pronounced el-eel') and it means "good for nothing; idol, no value, thing of nought."

The definition for idol seems fitting for what I use or do instead of turning to God. For example, when I'm emotionally exhausted, I make my way to food. I could turn to prayer. I tend to veg out in front of the television or Internet when I feel stressed - just to get my mind off of my issue. I could worship God and meditate on Him during those times instead.

Idolatry is some thing that we deviate to instead of God. It dilutes our faith and weakens our walk with Him. In Isaiah 1:21, the Lord says "See how the faithful city has become a harlot!" He was referring to Jerusalem and how the people, who once worshipped God, now worshipped many idols. He considered it adultery.

I have noticed though that when I rely on something else other than God, though it may temporarily satisfy me, the feeling quickly goes away. I am left empty and dreading the extra calories I just inhaled. When I turn to God, I feel full. I may still have a problem, but I have peace about it and possibly wisdom to help me with the situation. I hope I remember this though next time I'm faced with the choice to worship and pray or eat junk in front of the tv.

What about you? Do you have any idols or false gods in your life?

September 11: A Bittersweet Date

2009-09-10T23:19:00.004-05:00

Ten years ago today (September 11, 1999), I woke up knowing my life was about to change forever. I tried to savor every moment, though the day flew by quickly. I remember the calmness I felt that day, knowing I was making the right decision and that I had been blessed by God. With my hair and make-up flawless, dress perfectly fluffed, and bouquet weighing a ton, I walked down the aisle arm-in-arm with my Dad, towards my husband-to-be. Afterwards, family and friends celebrated with us with dinner and dancing. Toasts were made (along with smart-aleck comments thanks to my brother and a friend), cakes were cut (delicious ones made by a family friend), and congratulations were offered. That day, full of love, laughter, and celebration will forever be a part of me.

Fast forward two years. My husband had to be out of town for the day on business, but planned on being back to celebrate our two-year anniversary. I listened to a local radio station as I sat in rush-hour traffic. The morning DJ came on and announced that a second plane had just hit the World Trade Center. A second plane? I didn't realize one had hit the first tower. I turned up the radio and listened to the barely-there details. Once I arrived at work, I joined the rest of the employees in the lounge area watching the television. Details trickled in. The Pentagon was hit, the towers crumbled, and the plane crashed in the field. I remember standing there, jaw to the floor, awe-struck with what I was hearing. The company sent us home to be with family. That day, full of terror, tears, and sadness will forever remain with me as well.

Obviously, we didn't celebrate our anniversary that night. In fact, we didn't celebrate our anniversary on the 11th for a few years, instead waiting a couple of days. It didn't feel right. This year though, I want to celebrate it on the proper day. God blessed us that day and has blessed us for ten years. I want to acknowledge and commemorate the occasion. I no longer feel I'm disrespecting those who lost their lives, but rather honoring the Lord for what He has done for us. I've decided there has to be a balance between celebrating my marriage and remembering those who lost their lives. That is why this date will forever be bittersweet.

Word Study Wednesday: Powerful Prayers

2009-09-10T14:35:00.002-05:00

"We loved to hear him pray." My Dad heard this comment several times regarding his late father, my grandfather. As Dad and my brother went through some of Grandpa's belongings, they came across a study outline he had prepared. The topic: "How to Pray". Curious about my Grandpa's thoughts on prayer, I had my brother make me a copy (my brother kept the original). I've reviewed it a couple of times since, and each time I do, something new stands out.

Today, I'm borrowing heavily from his outline. In particular, the section titled "How to Pray With Power." This may be a little long, but I believe the points he makes are important.

To begin with, our prayers must be made to God. I know, you're thinking, isn't all prayer made to God? Here are some things to consider.

Do we make a definite, conscious approach to God? We need to have a vivid realization that God is listening to us as we pray.

Do we allow our minds to be taken up with what we need? They shouldn't. Our minds need to be focused on God. Our needful thoughts should be secondary.

Do we allow our minds to wander? I'm guilty of this. One moment, I'm praying and the next, I'm thinking about something that happened last week.

"In this type of praying (the wandering, not-focusing-on-God type), there is no power - this prayer is not to God."

So, how can we make sure our prayers are unto God? "Look to the Holy Spirit to lead us into the presence of God. Develop an attitude of reverence (don't be hasty with words and wait for the Holy Spirit's lead)." Romans 8:26 says "Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words." Jude 20 also says "But you, beloved, building yourselves up in our most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit..."

We should also pray without ceasing and with all earnestness. When Jesus prayed in the Garden, "He prayed more earnestly, and His sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground," (Luke 22:44).

Hebrews 5:7 reads "In the days of His flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplications with loud cries and tears..."

The point these two verses make is to pour our prayers from our soul, "stretching out toward God in intense and agonizing desire."

The next point convicts me: "If we rush into God's presence, run through a string of petitions, jump up, and leave - if we put little heart into our prayers - we cannot expect God to put much heart into answering our prayers." He might because He is gracious, but I see the point. Also, if I'm not willing to deeply express my requests, then are they that important to me?

I hope this helps you in your prayer life. I know my grandpa's words have given me many thoughts to seriously consider. What are your thoughts?

Our New Journey

2009-09-07T17:18:00.002-05:00

Tomorrow is the first day. I have my schedule ready, books organized, and crafts planned out. That's right - tomorrow is the first day of our homeschool.

I'm a little nervous, but excited beyond words. Both of my children seem to be excited as well. My daughter has been counting down the days and even picked out her first-day-of-school outfit.

I try not to be overwhelmed with the idea that my husband and I are responsible for their education. And trust me, it's easy to feel overwhelmed. There are learning styles, homeschooling styles, numerous choices for curriculum, state laws and requirements, independent school requirements (more on that in a minute), homeschool organizations, homeschool legal defense associations, and on and on and on.

I attended an introductory course a month ago and a some of these questions were answered. I also learned new things to add to the plethora of information currently floating in my brain. For example, there are three homeschooling options to choose from (according to Colorado law). I could homeschool and submit information (i.e. attendance records and testing scores) directly to the school district or I could work through an independent or private school, which means I follow their guidelines for attendance and testing, while they maintain our records. Another option requires me to have a teacher's certificate. We chose the independent school option.

I'm also trying not to feel pressured. I feel like this year is for trial and error as my oldest is starting Kindergarten. I'm sure curricula will come and go, depending on each child's needs, but hopefully I can attune myself to each child's learning style early on to avoid frustration.

The one thing I'm looking forward to is the look on my children's faces as they learn something new and it clicks. I want them to be excited to learn more about the Lord and His creation. I'm sure it will be a refresher course for me as well, and hopefully I, too, will appreciate the Lord and His creation a little (okay a lot) more.

Word Study Wednesday: Tweeting Prayers

2009-09-02T10:53:00.003-05:00

Last night I started writing my post for today, but I was going to discuss prayer and fasting (I will, at a later time). After researching these two topics, I began to think about my own prayer life and wonder if it could be better (yes, it can). Don't get me wrong, I pray. I pray a lot throughout the day, but they are short prayers ("texting God" as my friend Melyssa calls it. Mine are more like tweets on Twitter - 140 characters or less). How can I develop a strong relationship with the Lord if I'm only tweeting Him?

As I reveiwed the Scriptures last night regarding prayer, I noticed how seriously the Biblical heroes took prayer. Moses, Daniel, Jesus, and many more, would go to a quiet place or rise before the sun to pray. Some prayed for 40 days and nights, some fasted during their prayers, some wore sackcloth and ashes as a sign of true mourning and repentance. Pleading for mercy, praying for their nations, for protection, for a child - these prayers were offered from the heart. They prayed without ceasing (1 Thessolonians 5:17).

How can I improve my prayer life? I can't necessarily go away for 40 days and nights, but I might be able to find 40 minutes (keep in mind there are no time limits on prayer, I'm using this as an example). I can go to bed earlier so I can get up earlier and use the quiet time of the early morning for prayer.

I can also watch what I pray. James 4:2b - 3 says "You do not have, because you do not ask. 3You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions." (ESV)
What are the motives for my prayers? Am I praying for God's will to be done or am I praying for material possessions that will bring no glory to God?

How am I praying? Am I like the hypocrite and the pharisee - praying where others see me (Matthew 6:5) and bragging to God how great and pious I am (Luke 18:11)? Or like the tax collector who hung his head, beat his chest and begged for mercy (Luke 18:1) realizing my great sin and His great grace?

The benefits of prayer are endless. I will draw closer to the Lord as I relay my most intimate thoughts to Him. My relationship with Him will grow stronger meaning my faith will grow as well. It's also a chance to check my thoughts and motivations and pray for forgiveness. I can't do this though in short prayers, just like I can't build a relationship with someone with short phrases.

How's your prayer life? What are your thoughts on prayer? I would love to read your comments.

Word Study Wednesday: Prayer and Supplication

2009-08-26T14:19:00.002-05:00

I've decided to start a series on prayer. Prayer is our way of communicating with our Heavenly Father, therefore it is a necessity. I believe there are different types of prayers - prayers for healing, warfare, emergencies, daily conversation, and needful prayers. Today's study explains one way of presenting our requests to the Lord.

Phillipians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God." (ESV)

I've heard this verse many, many times - so much so that I never really paid attention to the meaning of the words anymore, but rather recited them from memory. As I prepared for this study, I became curious of the word supplication. The Greek word for supplication is "deesis" (pronounced deh-ay-sis) and it means "prayer, request, supplication" (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance). So, reading the verse with this definition, it sounds like "...but in everything by prayer and prayer..." but that seems a bit repetitive. I then looked supplication up on Dictionary.com and it defined it as a "humble prayer."

I also looked up the definition for prayer and it seemed to make the verse a bit clearer. The Greek word for prayer is "proseuche" (pronounced pros-yoo-khay), meaning "prayer (worship)."

Now I read the verse as "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by worshipful prayer and humble prayer and thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God."

This is how Jesus prayed when He was in the garden before His arrest. Mark 14:36 says "And he said, 'Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. Remove this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what You will." He worshipped the Lord by acknowledging His power - "all things are possible for You..." Then he humbly asked the Lord to take away his cup, but "not what I will, but what You will." Jesus didn't list off his accomplishments or say why he deserved not to die. He put aside his will and prayed for God's will.

Present your requests to God in a humble and worshipful matter. Most importantly, pray for His will, not yours.

Word Study Wednesday: Help

2009-08-19T12:15:00.003-05:00

Isaiah 41:10: "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." (ESV)

My daughter struggled with me as I tried to help her write the number eight. "I can do it," she said as she pulled the paper away from my reach.

After a few moments, I pulled her aside for a talk. "Honey, why don't you like it when I help you?" No comment. I continued. "Is it because you feel like you're a big girl and can do it yourself?"

"Yes," she said sheepishly.

I then went on to explain that it's okay to ask for help. Then it hit me. I'm just as guilty. I think that since I'm a woman in my mid-30s, I should be able to do it all without help. The truth is, I can't.

I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed the past few weeks. Occasionally, I may have prayed for help, peace, guidance, and rest, but not consistently. It's during those times of inconsistency where I feel like I'm drowning.

The word "help" originates in Hebrew as "azar" (pronounced aw-zar). According to Strong's Exhaustive Concordance, it means "to surround, to protect or aid: help." Using that definition, I imagine the Lord surrounding me, helping me with my issues. Maybe like the way I stood behind and surrounded my daughter, holding her hand while helping her write eights.

Times are tough - bad economy, a lot of stress and anger, distrust of others, disappointment, and fear. Add those to personal issues and it's enough to make one feel helpless - but God is here. "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." All we have to do is ask and trust in Him.

Using Talent for Worship

2009-08-10T11:26:00.003-05:00

"Mommy, I have a dance for you," my daughter told me. She performed pirouettes and arabesques, and twirled her way across the kitchen floor. She held nothing back as she performed her ballet for me as a birthday gift from her heart.

Isn't this how we should be as we present our gifts to the Lord? Carefree, full of love, and from the heart? There's a freedom in knowing that if I present my talent to my heavenly Father as a gift of worship, He will not reject me. In fact, I imagine His reaction to be like mine to my daughter's dance - full of joy and delight.

He gives us talents not only to minister to the world, but also as a way to worship Him. As long as I use my talent and present it with love, I'm not only obeying His will for my life, but I'm also worshipping Him.

No Internet? What? Will I Survive?

2009-08-06T10:20:00.002-05:00

“What? Are you serious? Oh no!” Dread filled my mind as I wondered how I would function without access to the Internet for the next week. No news, no blogs, nothing. I knew I was supposed to be on vacation and, in fact, I gave my husband a hard time for wanting to bring his work computer along (he didn't), but I didn’t consider surfing the net as work. After throwing my little tantrum, I resigned myself to the fact and decided to find other things to do during my free time.

Oddly enough, after a couple of days with no access, I found myself less stressed and more energized. I became care-free. It’s been awhile since I felt that way. I then realized I spend too much time on the Internet. I need to moderate my time. But how can I moderate my time, especially when my urge to visit the web hit me as soon as I came home?

I’m still thinking through this. I do have a few changes coming up in my life (more on that later), so I need to rethink my whole day. One way is to schedule specific time periods for my recreational surfing and follow it. Another way to moderate it is to cut back on what I read. I read a lot. I read news sites, blogs, online magazines, emails, and social networks. I need to review and weed out the material not edifying my soul (for example: entertainment magazines).
These are just a couple of ideas I’ve come up with so far.

What about you? Do you find yourself spending too much time on something? What do you do to moderate it?

Word Study Wednesday: Pleasing God

2009-08-05T22:13:00.004-05:00

Ephesians 5:8-10: "For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light 9 (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) 10 and find out what pleases the Lord."

"Mommy, come look at my room," my daughter yelled down the stairs. She wanted me to see her clean room.

"Great job, Sweetie," I said looking at her room. Her smile beamed across her face as I expressed my delight in a job well done (granted this was the third time to look at her room, but it was finally done). As children of God, we should want to please Him, just as children long to please their parents.

So what pleases the Lord? Jeremiah 9:24 gives us a hint: "...but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight." Just as the LORD exercises kindness, justice and righteousness, we should as well. He delights in those who practice His ways and live as children of light. Of course, living as children of light, we should shine in the darkness.

What's the reward for pleasing the Lord? Psalm 37:23 - 24 says: "If the Lord delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm; 24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand." My favorite part of those verses is the phrase "...the Lord delights in a man's way" My prayer is that He delights in my ways and that my ways are His ways. I imagine Him watching me, smiling and delighting in my way of living. A smile beams across my face.

Back from Vacation and Back to Blogging

2009-08-05T22:03:00.003-05:00

I am back from a wonderful vacation with my family in New Hampshire. We didn't have Internet access, which turned out to be a blessing (I'll post about that later). I feel rested and ready to start blogging again. Let's start with Word Study Wednesday.

Word Study Wednesday: Temple

2009-07-15T13:09:00.006-05:00

1 Corinthians 6:19 - 20: "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body."

Recently, my friends and I were discussing the Ark of the Covenant. Our conversation consisted of comments like "Can you imagine traveling with the Spirit of God like that?" "I can't begin to imagine carrying the Ark..." Then a friend reminded us that the Spirit of God dwells in us. Oh, yeah.

Since then, I've been contemplating my body and how I treat it. Not just physically, but spiritually and mentally as well. How do I honor God with my body? It is in the way I live my life.

Romans 6:19 reads: "...Just as you used to offer the parts of your body in slavery to impurity and to ever-increasing wickedness, so now offer them in slavery to righteousness leading to holiness." The Greek word for slavery is "doulos" (pronounced doo'-los) meaning a "slave (literally or figuratively, involuntary or voluntary frequently therefore in a qualified sense of subjection or subserviency): bond, servant."* We were once slaves to our bodies, needing to gratify every carnal desire, but not anymore. Jesus died in order to pay for our sins. He paid the price for us to free us. Now that the Spirit of God dwells within us, our old desires have been replaced with new desires to please God, to live a holy life.

What does a holy life mean? "holy" means "...morally blameless or religious, ceremonially consecrated: saint."* Believe it or not, this is possible by listening to that still, small voice inside known as the Spirit of God. Holiness comes from obedience to the Word of God. We cannot attain holiness without God. Of course, the only way to get to God is through His Son Jesus.

If we live our lives recognizing, on a daily basis, that we are the temple of God - the dwelling place of His Spirit, I wonder how different we would be? Would we be kinder to others and to ourselves? Would we be healthier physically and mentally? Would we be the salt Jesus talks about? And before anyone thinks I'm judging them, I'm not. These questions are directed to me as well.

What are your thoughts?

*Strong's Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible

Word Study Wednesday: Rest

2009-07-08T23:41:00.005-05:00

Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

Too many demands and not enough rest in the Lord makes an empty, cranky person. At least that's how I feel. I don't necessarily feel burdened, but I do feel weary. I've allowed my to-do list to control me and now my body and mind are rebelling. It's not that I need sleep - I need to rest in the LORD. I need to soak in His glory, to gaze upon His beauty, and to know that He is God.

The Greek word for "rest" is "anapauo" (pronounced an-ap-ow-o Strong's Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible). It means to "take ease, refresh (give, take) rest." Jesus is offering us refreshment and rest. To me, it's like swimming in a cool pool on a hot day. We are immersed in His rest, His refreshment.

How do we rest in Him, especially if we have responsibilities requiring our attention? Look at your daily schedule. Are there any blocks of time (an hour here, a half-hour there), that are free? For example, I know once the kids go to bed, I have a couple of hours to myself (which I've been using poorly). I also know I watch too much television and spend too much time surfing the Internet.

Jesus found rest by escaping to quiet places. In Mark 6:31, Jesus tells His disciples to "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." Mark 1:35 says "Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed." Notice both of these verses state He went to a quiet or solitary place. He gives us rest when we are quiet.

Find a quiet place and rest in Jesus. Make time for Him because only He can restore our weary, burdened souls.

How do you find rest in Jesus? Feel free to discuss it in the comments section.

Word Study Wednesday: Work

2009-07-01T18:23:00.002-05:00

Colossians 3:23 - 24 "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."

I face a constant battle as a Christian writer. One part of me desperately wants to be published and recognized for my writing. The other part desperately wants to glorify and worship the Lord with what He has given me. Thankfully, these verses help quash my ego and everything is put into perspective.

These verses not only apply to my calling as a writer, but to my other roles as wife, mother, house manager, and so on. Whatever I do, I should see it as working and serving the Lord. That includes those days of folding underwear and scrubbing toilets.

What if I don't want to do the work? I have to admit, this has been an issue lately. Other than updating my blog and sending a few e-mails, I have not been writing (I'm in so much trouble now from my writer's group). I've been putting off my writing because "my heart just isn't in it." I've allowed distractions. I've taken my focus off of God and placed it on earthly concerns.

How do I remedy an unwilling heart? I'm reminded of Romans 12:1 "Therefore, I urge you brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship." Sacrificing what I want to do and focusing on what the Lord wants me to do is an act of worship. It may be difficult at first and will require discipline, but viewing my actions as worship prepares my heart for the work.

Also, it's considered an act of worship when I write for the Lord's glory and not for mine. It doesn't matter if zero people read my blog postings or if I ever become a published author, as long as I'm obedient to Him.

What is your motivation behind your work? Is it for you or for the Lord?

The Line Between News and Gossip

2009-06-29T15:36:00.004-05:00

Proverbs 18:8 "The words of a talebearer are as wounds, and they go down into the innermost parts of the belly."

I stayed away from news networks this weekend (which is hard for a news junkie). Why? Because the majority of stories focused on the life and death of Michael Jackson. Granted, his death, tragic and sudden, impacted a lot of people, but do we really need to know all of the details? Do the news outlets even know the details - or is it all speculation?

This morning, I decided to brave the news again. They actually had some news: Madoff sentenced to 150 years in prison for his fraud, Iran declares (again) Ahmadinejad as the winner of the election (after counting a few votes - that's a whole other post), bones positively identified as St. Paul's, and so on. Then came the replay of the 911 call regarding the late infomercial pitch man Billy Mays. Really? Do we need to hear the frantic call placed by a grieving family member? I know it's a matter of public record, but I still feel like I'm intruding. Then, of course, more "news" about Michael Jackson.

I guess I'm wondering where the line is drawn between news and gossip? To me, it's news when someone famous (or infamous) dies. It's gossip when rumors swirl around regarding the manner of death. If the coroner has not stated the manner of death, then any speculation is just gossip. This leads to confusion, more rumors, defamation of the deceased person, and added pain to the already-grieving family.

There are so many other stories the networks should be focusing on: the coup in Honduras, the ongoing protests in Iran, the CAP and Trade energy bill (again - another post), and the threats from North Korea.

Okay - I'll get off my soap box. Anyone else feel the same way or differently? Feel free to comment.

Word Study Wednesday: Hiding His Word

2009-06-24T21:54:00.003-05:00

Psalm 119:11 "I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you."

As he finished his sermon, the guest speaker closed his Bible, looked out into the congregation and cited Ephesians 5 - without looking at the Bible or any notes. My friends and I stared at each other in awe at this man's memory. The rest of the congregation seemed to be in awe as well. When finished, he hit us with this question, as if in reply to our astonishment: "How many of you have songs or lines from movies and tv shows memorized?" Ouch. His point was that we should know the word of God by heart, since it is our life.

The definition for "word" comes from the Hebrew word 'imraw or 'emrah. It means "commandment, speech, word." (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance)

The definition for "heart" is interesting (to me, anyway). Its original Hebrew word is "leb" (pronounced labe). It refers not only to the heart, but to the "feelings, the will, and even the intellect." (Strong's Exhaustive Concordance)

One could almost interpret the psalm as "I have hidden your word, your commandment, and your speech not only in my heart, but in my will, my intellect, and my feelings so that I might not sin against you." His word soaks into our very being. First, through knowledge and memorization, then into our heart where we can recall it when necessary.

This may sound daunting, but it's important. I believe it ties into being a disciple of Christ. If we do not know the Lord's commands, His words, or speech, then how are we to know the Lord? Jesus knew the word of the Lord. He replied several times using the phrase "It is written."

Why should we know the word? The psalmist answers that question. So that we won't sin against God. If we do not know that coveting is a sin, is it still a sin when we covet our neighbor's new car? Yes, it is. The Lord makes it clear in the Ten Commandments not to covet.

Don't get me wrong. I am not the best when it comes to memorization. That is why I depend upon the Holy Spirit. I feel if I take the time to memorize the word, then at some point, when I need it, the Holy Spirit will bring it to mind. It may not be word for word, but the point is still there.

Knowing the word of God should not be a grade-school task, but rather a gathering of sacred knowledge sent to us from our Father so that we may live lives pleasing to Him.

Happy Father's Day!

2009-06-21T10:19:00.003-05:00

This post is dedicated to my Dad.

My Dad and I have always had a great relationship (even during those dreaded teen years). I'm not saying we didn't have our issues, but we always worked through them. Though I may not have agreed with his wisdom (I was a teen after all), I always knew he came from a place of love and experience.

I enjoy spending time with Dad. When I was younger, he would take my brother and me to the golf course with him. At the time, I'm sure we complained about it ("It's too hot!" "It's too cold!"). Looking back now, I value the time we spent together. I also had the joy of witnessing his hole-in-one.

We also walked a lot. I treasure those times as well because it allowed us to talk. We'd talk about work, school, friends, and so on. Though we live in different states now, we still talk several times a week.

One of the important lessons Dad taught me was that it's never too late to change what you do in life, though you may have to work hard for it. Just about the time I started college, Dad decided to get his CPA license. Though he already had a degree, he still needed to take a few classes to meet the accounting requirements before taking the CPA exam. He worked a full-time job and took night courses. He would then come home and study, study, study. After a couple of years of hard work, he completed the required courses. After prepping for the CPA exam, he took it and passed with flying colors. I learned that if you really want something, hard work and sacrifice are required, but the results are worth it.

This is just one of many lessons I learned from my Dad. He's always been generous, forgiving, encouraging and loving. I hope to pass these lessons to my children.

Thanks Dad! I love you!

A Lesson at the Park

2009-06-19T14:33:00.003-05:00

"Mommy? Mommy?" my daughter asked as she looked for me. I saw her and called out "I'm over here, sweetie!" As soon as she spotted me, the panic-struck look on her face eased into a smile. She then continued playing in the water fountain at the park.

This happened a few times between my daughter and my son. They were focused on playing and running around and lost sight of where I was sitting. I never lost sight of them though. Eventually, they remembered where I was sitting.

At times, my relationship with God resembles this. I become so focused on what is going on around me, I lose sight of God. Thankfully, He never loses sight of me. When I look around and call out His name, He replies "I'm here. I've been here all along." My panic-struck heart then calms and I continue on, but this time focusing more on God.

Word Study Wednesday: Know Your Enemy

2009-06-17T17:07:00.004-05:00

Ephesians 6:12 "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." (NIV)

"If you're not popular in Hell, then there's something wrong," my minister said one night. I laughed, but the impact of that statement has stayed with me for several years. Why? Because if our enemy, satan, is not battling us, then we are not a threat to him. If we are not a threat, then we, as Christians are not doing what God has called us to do.

Last year, my enemy attacked. Weird things happened. Illness, depression, nightmares, and falling down a flight of stairs all within a few months. Worse yet, these attacks were not limited to me. My family experienced illness and nightmares as well (except for the youngest).

I reached out to several friends - one of them a minister. After explaining every crazy thing happening to my family and me, he asked if I had done anything or made any decisions affecting my spiritual life. DING! I realized then that my spiritual awakening and decision to begin writing for the glory of God led to these attacks. My friend reminded me to put on the full armor of God - the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, feet fitted with the readiness from the gospel of peace, shield of faith, helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit (my friend Robbie has started a series on the armor of God. Click here to read the first installment). I also prayed. I prayed by myself, I prayed with my children, I prayed with my friends. I prayed with anyone who would pray with me. I walked throughout my house and read scripture out loud (thanks to a suggestion from another close friend). I also became angry. I didn't shy away from the battle. After several weeks, things returned to normal - a new, more aware normal.

Our enemy doesn't just attack in large, noticeable ways. He also uses subtle battles to his advantage. For example: yes, I decided to write again, but how long did it take me to create a blog or attempt my first article? Longer than it should have. I allowed distractions. I permitted negative thoughts. I didn't look to God during these times and the enemy won - temporarily. Or rather, he postponed defeat.

Our enemy comes to "...steal, kill, and destroy" (John 10:10) and will use whatever means necessary to carry out his plans. But, God is greater. God is the Almighty. He will:

"3...save you from the fowler's snare and from the
deadly pestilence. 4He will cover you with his feathers and
under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and
rampart. 5You will not fear the terror of night, nor the
arrow that flies by day, 6nor the pestilence that stalks in
the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday..." (Psalm 91: 3 - 6)

It is extremely important to know our enemy. I guarantee you he knows us - every weakness, every fear, every button to push. We need to know his so that we are prepared to battle. Our Commander has the plan. Follow it and don't forget your armor.

Word Study Wednesday: Disciple Part 2

2009-06-10T09:51:00.004-05:00

Today we continue studying discipleship, with a focus on John 15. In John 15:8, Jesus proclaims "This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples." The definition for "disciples" is "student, follower." We are students and followers of Christ.

How do we produce fruit? We, on our own, can't. In John 15:4, Jesus says "No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me." This makes sense, since a branch on its own cannot live without the vine. We must abide or live in Christ and He must live in us to bear fruit.

Jesus states that God, as the Gardener, will cut "off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit He prunes so that it will be even more fruitful." (John 15:2). It's inevitable, we will be pruned so that we will grow stronger and bear more fruit. To reiterate what Jesus said, bearing fruit not only shows ourselves as His disciples, but it also brings glory to God.

I know I've been pruned, usually through some sort of a life change - a move to another city, a death of a loved one, a change of habit, and so on. Yes, the pruning may have been painful, but whenever I look back at where I was before and after the pruning, I see growth. I also notice myself growing stronger in Jesus - my vine. I would rather be pruned than to be completely cut off from the vine. To be completely cut off from the vine leads to death.

What kind of fruit will we bear? Jesus answers this as well. Answered prayers (vs. 7, 16), obedience to His commands (v. 9), completed joy (v. 11), and love (vs. 9, 12, 13, 17). Once again, Jesus commands us to love another (see last week's post), even to the point of death. Let it also be noted that obedience to His commands is a result of living in love (v. 9). Love is crucial to being a disciple of Christ.

What kind of fruit are you bearing? Are you willing to be pruned in order to grow stronger and to bear more fruit? Are you living in love? More importantly, are you abiding in Christ? These are not just questions for you, but for me as well.

Word Study Wednesday: Disciple

2009-06-03T21:29:00.003-05:00

Today (and for the next one or two Word study posts), I would like to focus on what it means to be a disciple of Christ. I'm not only sharing this information with you, but I'm also learning it myself. I am not coming from a place of "expert," but rather as a friend sharing what I've learned. I want to hear your opinion as well. That's the point of this blog.

Being a disciple is more than accepting Christ as your Lord and Savior. The definition of disciple is "a learner; a pupil* (which is why the twelve men who followed Jesus were called "disciples"). They were learning from the Master on how to live a Christ-like life. Notice the definition does not say "one who has been taught" or "graduate." The definition implies a current existence. As a disciple, we are continually learning how to be like Jesus.

So, how can we be like Christ? One way is to love each other. Jesus says in John 13:34 - 35 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35 By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

Let's look at how he loved us. In John 3:16, Jesus says: "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." He came to die for us so that we may gain eternal life. I cannot think of a better example of love. Jesus showed love to everyone, the leper, the adulteress, the tax collector, and those who wanted to kill Him. Even as the soldiers nailed Him to the cross, He prayed for them (Luke 23:34).

I am by no means perfect in this area. I too quickly speak words of hatred (it shames me to write that) towards those I may dislike (politicians come to mind - just as an example). If I want to be like Christ, I need to exhibit love towards those people. How? I can pray for them and pray for myself that God will show me how to love them. I can also keep my mouth shut.

What about you? What can you do to love others, even those who seem unlovable?

Next week: Abiding in Him

*Strong's Exhaustive Concordance: Greek Dictionary (3101 mathetes (pronounced math-ay-tes))

Word Study Wednesday: Discipline

2009-05-27T16:38:00.004-05:00

Hebrews 12:11 "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." (NIV)

Discipline: (3809 in Strong's Exhaustive Concordance): The Greek word for "discipline" is Paideia (pronounced pahee-di-ah). By implication, it means "disciplinary correction: chastening, chastisement, instruction, nurture."

Trained (1128): The Greek word for "trained" is Gumnazo (pronounced goom-nad-zo). It means "to train; exercise."

My Take
There are two ways to interpret this verse. One way is to look at discipline as a chastening from the Lord. The other way is to view it as instruction from the Lord. I believe though that these two interpretations intermingle with each other.

Discipline is a common theme in our household. We discipline the children when they do something wrong. We discpline our dog for tearing into the trash. When we do discipline, it is not for the sake of punishment. Granted, punishment may be involved so that our children will learn more about actions and consequences (the dog is hopeless), but we discipline in order to correct a behavior or action that is wrong.

Though we may be Christians, we are still human and still exercise free will. Sometimes we do things that are not in line with Abba's way, including actions that may harm ourselves or others. Since we are His children, He will discipline us in order to correct our behavior or action.

Don't think His discipline will take away our free will. We still have the choice to either accept or rebel against His discipline. When we do accept His discipline and train ourselves according to His will, we will reap righteousness and peace. Of course, when we rebel against the Lord, there is no peace because we are not in righteous standing with Him.

The other way to interpret this verse is to see discipline as instruction from the Lord. He shows us, through His Son Jesus, how we should live our lives. It is up to us to train ourselves, with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, to follow His examples, His instruction.

Whether the Lord is chastening you or instructing you, it is for the good. It may hurt, but the results will include peace and righteousness in God's eyes. As children of the Lord, that should be what we desire.

I'm Back!

2009-05-26T16:33:00.003-05:00

To begin with, I want to thank all of you who prayed for my Mom and the rest of my family while she was in the hospital. She is home and doing a lot better. Many prayers were answered. She amazed the doctors with her recovery (because the Lord healed her). For example, the pulminologist planned on keeping her sedated and on the ventilator for an additional day, but the fluid in her lungs started clearing faster than he thought it would. They took her off of sedation and tested her breathing ability. Her blood / oxygen levels did well while she wore the oxygen prong (the plastic tubing that goes up your nose).

I also want to thank those of you who sent me encouraging words of support. Those words helped me more than you know during a difficult time.

I plan on getting back on the blogging track beginning with my Word Study Wednesday tomorrow.

If you need prayer for anything, please let me know. I've always believed in the power of prayer and the events of last week strengthened that belief.

Happy Mother's Day!

2009-05-09T22:50:00.003-05:00

I dedicate this post to my mom.

I've always been thankful for my mom. We've had our disagreements, but I've never doubted her love for me. She let me know from an early age that she (and my dad) always loved me, no matter what. She also worked hard during my pesky teen years to maintain a close relationship with me (although I was nearly perfect - okay maybe not, but I can dream, right?). Though we may be hundreds of miles apart, we are still close. I call her looking for advice and I love telling her stories about her grandchildren.

One of the most important things she ever did for me (besides giving birth to me) occurred when I was five. I remember sitting in her lap and accepting Jesus as my savior. I may not have understood the complete importance of it at that time, but it impacted my life. I am forever thankful for that moment.

I truly never appreciated the difficult task of being a mom until I became one. So many of my emotions, thoughts, and actions dedicate themselves to my children. Though exhilirating, it is also exhausting. So, thank you Mom for your sacrifice, your wisdom, and your love. You are a blessing not only in my life, but in others as well. I love you.

PS: Mom, I'm listening to JG as I write this post in honor of you!

Word Study Wednesday: Fear (Part 2)

2009-05-06T15:31:00.002-05:00

Joshua 1:9: "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrifed; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with your wherever you go."

My Take
God spoke these words to Joshua as He prepared him to take over the Promised Land thousands of years ago. He now uses these words to guide me through my writing career. Granted, my writing career does not entail physical war with large armies, but I am waging a war - with myself.

This past year battles raged inside me. Attacks from the enemy included "What would you write? Who would want to read something you wrote? You think you can really write?" But the message from my Commander came in loud and clear "I called you to write."

So, here I am today, writing a blog and working on a few submissions, no longer terrified, thanks to the LORD.

I will admit, discouragement, disguised as a rejection, snuck through my defense line, briefly. More attacks - "See, told you." More encouragement "I'm with you - write more." I accepted my rejection and am now re-working the article a bit for resubmission to another publication.

I've learned, re-learned, accepted, and rejected several issues throughout this battle. One of the biggest lessons I've learned is that fear keeps us from our calling. Our enemy wants us to be terrified of the unknown and discouraged through rejection and failure because if we're not, then we are doing what God has called us to do - which terrifies the enemy.

Word Study Wednesday: Fear

2009-04-29T16:52:00.003-05:00

Psalm 46:1, 2: "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. 2Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea..."

My Take
Today's news is full of fearful things: swine flu, tanked economy, food shortages, severe weather, terrorism, and the list continues. It is understandable if people live in fear. But we as Christians are called to live a life a faith, not fear. I'm probably the last person who should be talking about this as I tend to turn to fear first before faith, but I'm learning.

God is our hiding place, our shelter for when we are weary. God is strong for us and is always there for us. He is our Father and we are His children. No verses illustrate this point more than Luke 22:42 - 44:

"'Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.' 43An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him (emphasis: mine). 44And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground."

As a disciple of Christ, we are to follow His example. In this case, when Jesus felt anguish, He prayed to His heavenly Father - our heavenly Father.

This is our chance, as Christians, to let others see God in us. When you feel weak or tired, seek the Lord - He will strengthen you. Even if the earth gives way and the mountains fall into the sea.

Update: After posting, I remembered a quote I wanted to add here. I'm not sure who said it, but if someone does, please let me know. "Fear is to Satan what faith is to God."

Embracing the Experience

2009-04-27T20:17:00.008-05:00

Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'"

Fear flowed through me when I learned of our relocation to Colorado. I lived in Texas for 17 years, and, despite the severe storms and hot summers, I enjoyed living there. My parents and brother lived only minutes away. I knew I would miss them terribly and regretted the fact that my children would not have grandparents and an uncle living nearby. I would also miss my friends. My family and I were starting over.

On the other hand, I realized this move was an opportunity for my husband. He worked really hard at his job, and I felt he deserved this promotion (I'm not biased or anything). After a few weeks of dwelling on the subject, I started to see the move as an adventure - a new state, new friends, and so on. What I didn't count on was a spiritual awakening.

You see, after a couple of years of the same routine, I became numb. Not numb towards family and friends, just numb inside towards daily life. I went through the motions. I also let my spiritual life become numb. The Lord used this move to shake up my life.

After the big move, I felt different - scared, but invigorated. I ventured out, became familiar with my new surroundings (I must say I have a great view of the Rockies). I joined a local writer's group. I hadn't even thought about writing in over three years. I attended a Bible study. During this time of newness, God opened my eyes to my spiritual state and awakened my soul to His mercies, grace, and love. He reminded me that I am His and He has a plan not just for my family, but for me as well. He also has me facing fears and conquering them (this blog is proof).

I am now thankful for this move. Sure, I'll complain about the April snow (a new experience, indeed) and miss my family a lot, but I feel I am where the Lord wants me to be. And I am embracing it.

Are you embracing your experience?

Word Study Wednesday: Name of the LORD

2009-04-22T11:53:00.002-05:00

Psalm 113:3: "From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the LORD is to be praised."

Name (8034 Strong's Exhaustive Concordance - Hebrew) shem (shame): by implication honor, authority, character

LORD (3068) Yehovah (yeh-ho-vaw): Self-Existent or eternal; Jewish national name of God; Jehovah the Lord

Praised (1984) halal (haw-lal): Make a show to praise, give thanks, cheer, extol, to make one's boast (in the name of God)

My Take
I like the definition to "name." In essence, the name - the honor, the authority, the character of the LORD is to be praised. No matter what we are going through - good times or bad - we are to praise:

His honor: He will not do anything or have us do anything that will bring dishonor to His name
His authority: He is God - creator of Heaven and Earth. He is our creator
His character: He has so many facets to His character - provider, healer, banner, shepherd (just to name a few)

How can we know the honor, the authority, and the character of the LORD? To begin with, we need to understand our relationship to God. He created us and we are His creation (Psalm 100:3). We need to know that God is love. I John 4:8 says that "Whoever does not love, does not know God, because God is love."

I also believe a good starting place is to know the many names of the LORD. Recently, some friends and I finished studying Kay Arthur's book LORD, I Want to Know You. In this book, Arthur explains the names of the LORD. This study reminded me of the many characteristics of our LORD. He is our Creator, Healer, Shepherd, Provider, and so many other things. Understanding these different aspects of God's character has made my praise, worship, and prayers more intimate. I not only praise Him as God, but I also praise Him as the LORD who is there (Jehovah-shammah) or the LORD who sanctifies me (Jehovah-mekkodishkem).

We need to praise God, not only for what He has done for us, but because of who He is. Whether we are experiencing great or painful times, scary or silly moments, the name of the LORD should be praised.

Dyspraxia

2009-04-16T11:45:00.004-05:00

What is Dyspraxia? It is a developmental disorder that can affect one or all motor skills. In my son's case, it affects his speech skills (at least from what we can tell right now. There are many more symptoms related to Dyspraxia. There is a link at the bottom of this post leading to more information).

My daughter could talk clearly by the time she was two years old. My son, on the other hand couldn't. He couldn't even say "mama." I asked our family doctor about it and she told me that boys develop slower than girls and that his sister probably did the talking for him. So, I didn't worry about it.

His limited speech skills affected his self-esteem, though. He didn't like to play with children his age (except for his sister). He would watch our mouths intently when we would speak. He would try to mimic what we were saying, but when he couldn't, he would lower his head down and sadly say "oh." He would also get frustrated and start crying. My heart broke. I decided to take him to a speech therapist. She diagnosed him with Dyspraxia. Her diagnosis was confirmed by another evaluation through the county.

His speech therapist explained that it is harder for him to speak than those who do not have Dyspraxia. He at times doesn't know what to do with his tongue or which way to move his mouth when he speaks.

After months of intense speech therapy and practice at home, my son can now talk in complete sentences (not perfectly, but he's come a long way. His therapist said she could tell he really wanted to speak. I told her it was so he could stick up for himself against his sister). He no longer hangs his head or cries out of frustration. He even has a friend he likes to play with. Just tonight, as I was tucking him in bed, I told him "I love you." He said "Not me." When I gave him a look, he said "I just teasing. I wove you." Warmed my heart.

Please click here to learn more about Dyspraxia.

Word Study Wednesday: Fruit

2009-04-15T15:12:00.005-05:00

Luke 6:44: "Each tree is recognized by its own fruit. People do not pick figs from thornbushes, or grapes from briers." (NIV)

Recognized (1097 Strong's Exhaustive Concordance, Greek): ginosko (ghin-oce-ko); to know; recognize

Fruit (2590): Fruit

My Take
What fruit am I bearing? Am I bearing the fruit of the Spirit or my own bitter fruit? In this verse, Jesus is speaking to His disciples. He continues saying, in verse 45, "The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks." My fruit takes root in my heart and then ripens and bursts forth through what I say and do.

What fruit do I want to bear? To begin with, there is the Fruit of the Spirit - "...love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control..."(Galatians 5: 22 - 23). There's more! Second Peter 1:5-8 lists a few more fruits to add to faith: knowledge, perseverance, godliness, and brotherly kindness. Peter adds "For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive (unfruitful in KJV) in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."

What happens if I'm not bearing fruit? Peter addresses this as well in verse 9: "But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins." I don't know about you, but I don't ever want to forget that I've been cleansed from my sins.

So, how do I know my fruit is good? By knowing Christ and living my life like He did. Follow His example of loving God and others, expressing joy, exhibiting peace, showing patience, being good, faithful, and gentle, and exhibiting self-control. These may not appear overnight, but through perseverance and most importantly, prayer, this good fruit will take root.

What fruit are you bearing?

Happy Easter!

2009-04-11T14:39:00.002-05:00

Several years ago, one of my Sunday School teachers described, in brutal detail, the death of Christ. Afterwards, I ran to the bathroom and cried, actually bawled. Never before had I truly understood the magnitude of His death and resurrection. Don't get me wrong, I understood His death to be cruel, but I didn't know the gory details. If you have seen The Passion of the Christ, then you have an idea of what my teacher described. I did gain more appreciation (for lack of a better word) for His sacrifice and my grievous ways.

Recently, I finished reading Brennan Manning's latest, The Furious Longing of God. In the chapter titled Giving, Manning asks the reader if Christ went through all of that brutality just to make us nicer? Or did he endure it all so that we would be new creations? New creations willing to give ourselves completely to God (I'm really not doing it any justice here. If you get a chance to read it, please do. It's very convicting).

Please don't take Christ's sacrifice for granted. He knew what He was about to endure and still went through it so that we would be saved. What magnificent love!

He is Risen! He is Risen indeed! Amen!

Word Study Wednesday: Forsaken

2009-04-08T12:56:00.003-05:00

Matthew 27:46: "About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, 'Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?' - which means, 'My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?'" (NIV)

Forsaken: (1459 Strong's Exhaustive Concordance) egkataleipo (eng kat a li po): to desert: - forsake, leave

My Take
According to the commentary listed in my Bible, Jesus used this quote from Psalm 22:1 to express grief and anguish brought on by being forsaken by God, his Father. It goes on to call it a "double death." He not only died physically, but spiritually as well, as he died for our sins.

I cannot begin to fathom the anguish he felt - not only the physical pain, but the spiritual pain as well. He not only was separated from God, the creator and ruler, but God, his Father. From an early age, Jesus knew he was the Son of God. Remember Jesus' reply to his earthly parents when they questioned why he stayed in Jerusalem. He said "Why were you searching for me?...Didn't you know I had to be in my Father's house?" (Luke 2:49). As a side note, I like the way he said "had to be in..." like it was an urgent desire that had to be fulfilled.

Someone once asked me what was my biggest fear. After a little bit of thought, I realized my fear was being separated from God. I can't imagine not being able to worship Him, adore Him, admire the works of His hands. I can't imagine living without His peace, His love, His joy, His grace, His forgiveness.

Jesus experienced all of that and more while on the cross so that we wouldn't have to. I know I don't want to be separated from that kind of love.

Word Study Wednesday: Psalm 46:10

2009-04-01T17:15:00.002-05:00

Psalm 46:10: "Be still and know that I am God." (NIV)

Still (7503 Strong's Exhaustive Concordance, Hebrew): raphah (raw-faw): To slacken (in many applications, literally or figuratively): - cease, consume, idle, let alone, stay, be still, be slothful (just a few of the words associated with raphah).

Know (3045): yada (yaw-dah); to know, acknowledge, acquainted with, be aware, consider, understand

God (430): Elohiym (el-o-heem): gods in the ordinary sense; but specifically used of the supreme God.

My Take
I know this verse seems simple, but I feel it is relevant. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I have a lot of thoughts, or noise, going through my head right now. Add to that the worries of the world and everything seems chaotic. This verse centers me. It reminds me to shut out the world and to focus on Elohiym.

I need to remember that God created the world and He is still in control of the world. Nothing is in chaos. It just feels like it because I'm not focusing on Him, but rather concentrating on issues that I'm trying to solve myself. I need to remember that He is God - holy, gracious, loving, merciful, creator, and so many more things.

One thing I noticed - the word "still" is the same Hebrew word used for "slack." In last week's Word Study, "slack" had a negative reference. In this case though, God is calling us to be still or slack. It is as if He's saying it's okay to be idle now and to center ourselves on Him, to rest in Him.

I hope this helps you to rest in Him and to be still. It is easy to let life's issues take over our thoughts and actions. Take time today and know that He is God.

What's My Obstacle?

2009-03-31T09:21:00.012-05:00

A very close friend of mine e-mailed me last week. At the end of the note, she asked "What are your obstacles to writing your book today?" Great question!

I've been pondering this all week. The biggest obstacle I've encountered so far is noise. Not so much external noise, but more like internal noise. Before you ask, no, I'm not one of those people who hears voices in her head. I'm talking about the self-talk. The voice listing everything I have to do, reminding me of the things I have not done, expressing concern about my children (does Princess have too much attitude? Will I ever be able to potty-train Little Guy?), and nagging me constantly ("you should me exercising." "You should be writing."). My response has been to shut down and not in a good way.

Another obstacle is fear. Is my idea for my book a good one? Will people want to read it? I will say that having a blog has helped me conquer some of my fear. It's not completely gone, but it also does not have the stronghold it once had over me.

The solution to my obstacles is to obviously be quiet and know that He is God (see Psalm 46;10). He has plans for me and my desire to serve Him will help me overcome these challenges. Again, it comes down to focusing on Him and not myself.

What are your obstacles in accomplishing what you want to do?

Word Study Wednesday: Procrastination

2009-03-25T11:45:00.004-05:00

Joshua 18:3: "And Joshua said unto the children of Israel, how long are ye slack to go to possess the land, which the LORD God of your fathers hath given you?"

Slack (7503 Strong's Exhaustive Concordance): Raphah (raw-faw): forsake, idle, leave, let alone, be slothful

Possess (3423): Yaresh (yaw-raysh): to occupy (by driving out previous tenants, and possessing in their place)

Given (5414): nathan (naw-than): apply, appoint, ascribe, assign, bestow, distribute, give (forth, over, up) (these are just a few of the words given for nathan).

My Take
Though the word procrastination does not appear in the Bible (at least in the KJV), this verse illustrates it perfectly. Most of the Canannites had been conquered and the land now belonged to the Israelites (see Joshua 18:1 - 2). Seven tribes though, had yet to lay claim on their property. Why? Was the job too difficult? Too time consuming? Why didn't they "receive their inheritance?"

Though I'm not claiming any land, the Lord has set before me a purpose for my life. A lot of the time though, I do not work on my purpose. I procrastinate. I know the Lord wants me to write, but there are some days where I prefer to clean my house, run errands, even exercise (gasp!) than to sit down and write. Don't get me wrong, there is a time and a place for me to do these other things, but when I do them instead of writing, I am procrastinating. So now, I must ask myself, why am I so slack? Is the job too difficult? Too time consuming? Why am I not receiving my inheritance. I know some of the answers, but to be honest, they are more like excuses.

So, how do I beat procrastination? In the verses following verse 3, Joshua appoints men from each tribe to map out the land and to divide it. After the mapping is done, Joshua tells the tribes that he will then cast lots in the presence of the Lord. Joshua had a plan. That's what I need - a plan. I need to allot time for chores, errands, exercise, and writing. When it is time to perform these tasks, I need to be disciplined (another word study coming soon) to do them.

He also had the appointed men report back to him. He held them accountable to their purpose, their plan. That's what I need to do as well. Whether it be through a writer's group, a critique group or partner, I need that accountability.

Finally, Joshua cast lots before the Lord. By doing this, he was leaving the division in the Lord's hands. Though I probably won't be casting lots before the Lord, I will dedicate my work to Him. The point here is letting the Lord's will be done.

So, right now I am acknowledging my procastination. I know I do it and do it well. I will, however, create a plan, find someone to hold me accountable, and dedicate my work to the Lord. Now, hopefully, I won't slack in creating my plan.

Politics - As Usual

2009-03-20T12:26:00.011-05:00

I’m really not one to talk (or in this case write) about politics. If I do so, it’s because I’m extremely frustrated. Well, guess what? I’m there. Actually, I’m beyond frustrated, I’m mad.

I had hoped I would be wrong about this administration. I wondered if we would really see any hope and change. A popular bumper sticker during the campaign said this: "Change: It’s all you’ll have left." I’m beginning to believe it. I’m sure the slogan "Yes, we can!" didn’t originally mean "Yes, we’re the government and we can tax you on everything!"

I have decided, for my own peace of mind, to stop watching the news. At least for a few days. This whole mess with AIG, Congress, and the Treasury Secretary is just the latest. It stresses and saddens me. I find myself extremely cynical of the government and I don’t want to be.

This past week has been no exception. First, Senator Dodd claims that he had no idea the stimulus package contained a bonus protection clause. Then, the very next day, he admits to writing it himself at the behest of the administration. He also claims that though he was hesitant about it, he didn’t think it would be a big deal. Seriously? Millions of dollars in "retention" bonuses paid to people who no longer work at AIG wouldn’t be a big deal to the country. Oh, please! We’ve already given them billions of dollars that we’ll probably never recoup. Now Congress is trying to cover its backside by taxing the recipients of the bonus. I have mixed feelings about this. I feel it sets a bad precedent. We’ll have to wait and see if the tax is legal. I’m sure tens of lawyers are already on the case.

Instead of watching the news, I will read a book or two. I will write. More importantly I will pray. I will pray for our leaders and our country. I will pray for the people who have lost jobs, suffered salary cutbacks, are concerned with their housing situation, have health coverage worries, and so on. Though I may have lost hope in this administration, I haven’t lost hope in the Lord. He alone can change the hearts of people and give them hope in their situations.

Note: March 23: Here is the link to the article that Loretta mentioned in her comment. For whatever reason, the whole link isn't appearing in the comment box (at least on my end. I'm sure it's an error on my part). http://www.1440wallstreet.com/index.php/site/comments/aig_puts_goldman_sachs_back_in_the_limelight/

Word Study Wednesday: Will

2009-03-18T11:53:00.005-05:00

Matthew 7:21: "Not everyone who says to me 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven."

Will (2307 Greek - Strong's Exhaustive Concordance): thelema (thel-ay-mah): desire, pleasure, will.

My Take

I was recently reminded of this verse during a Bible study. To be honest, a knot formed in my stomach as I read it. I questioned whether or not I was truly doing the will of the Father.

In order for me to understand the context of this verse, I read the verses before and after verse 21.

Verse 20: "Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them."

Verses 22 and 23: "Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' 23 Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'"

I believe Jesus is referring to those who "talk the talk," but don't walk with Him. They are doing their own wills, their own desires, not the will of the Father. Their fruit is rotten.

So, what is the Father's will? In John 6:40, Jesus says: "For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day." It's God's desire or pleasure for us to believe in His Son and to spend eternity with Him. What a great verse! More proof as to how much the Father loves us.

This particular definition of "will" is also used in other places. The first mention of it is in the Lord's Prayer: "...Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven." (Matthew 6:10).

Jesus used "will" during his prayer in the Garden of Gethsemane: "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done."

Again in both of these verses, Jesus is referencing the Father's will, not ours, or Jesus' will.

Another point I find interesting is whenever Jesus spoke of God's will, he used "Father" instead of "God" or "Lord." It adds a degree of parent-child intimacy (obviously, since Jesus is the Son of God), but for me as well. It adds a sense of wanting to do the Father's will, since I am His child wanting to please and obey Him.

Now I use Matthew 7:21 as a spiritual check. Am I doing the Father's will or mine? To do the Father's will is to say so long to my will, my desire. At times, it will be a sacrifice to me, but it's a choice I make, just like Jesus made his choice to die for our sins. If the Father's will is important enough for Jesus to follow it to the point of death, then, as his disciple, I need to follow his example.

Coming Soon: Word Study Wednesday

2009-03-12T11:39:00.004-05:00

What is Word Study Wednesday? WSW is where I will pick a key word out of a verse and conduct a study of that word. I will consult various references (think concordance, dictionary, and such) to learn more about the true context of the word.

I believe it is very important for a Christian to truly understand the Word of God. In order to do this, it is necessary to learn more about the origin of the word.

The "My Take" section is my opinion on what I learned from the study. I am in no way a theologian. This section is to encourage dialogue only. I would love to hear what you have to say. As Proverbs 27: 17 says: "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another." (NIV).

The Pretend Friend

2009-03-10T17:36:00.008-05:00

"Mommy, Prince and I sleep in the same bed," my five-year-old daughter announced to me and the rest of the shoppers in the cereal aisle.

HUH?!? I grabbed my jaw and took a deep breath. "No, I don't think so, sweetie," I told her. My face flushed. "Boys sleep in boys' rooms and girls sleep in girls' rooms," I continued. Where is this coming from? I'm really not ready for this conversation.

I found out about Prince on our way to the grocery store. She informed me that Prince would be sitting in the middle seat. Usually, she refers to her younger brother as Prince, so I told her that no, he had to sit in his car seat. She then informed me that Prince was her "pretend friend." Ah. For some reason, it bothered me that she had an imaginary friend who was a boy. I'm just not ready to go there yet.

I'm trying not to make a big deal about Prince. Occasionally, if she brings him up, I'll ask a question. The other day, she eased my mind with the following conversation:

Me: "Is Prince another brother.

Her: "Yes, mommy. I have two brothers."

At that point, the youngest one looked at me and said "No, one sister."

The other day, the mystery behind Prince was solved. We were watching one of her favorite cartoons. I noticed that the little girl in the cartoon had a pretend friend who was a boy. "Is that where you got the idea for Prince?" I asked her. She gave me a sheepish look. She proceeded to tell me that she had to have a prince she could dance with since she's a princess.

I'm a little more comfortable with the idea of Prince, just as long as he stays in the boy's room.

Jumping in the Deep End

2009-03-07T23:36:00.011-06:00

To begin with, let me say "Welcome to my new blog!" Several people have encouraged me to begin a blog, but I've always brushed off the idea. What would I write? Would people read my blog (other than family and friends who felt obligated to)?

Finally, through prayer, encouragement from my husband, family, and friends, and God telling me to get over myself, I've decided to jump into the writer's pool. Not only have I started this blog, but I have also written a story for review and am in the process of writing a novel.

I will use this blog to discuss various things: faith, writing, politics (if I really need to vent), health, books, music, and so on. I hope you find this blog to be at least interesting, if not encouraging.

We are all given a talent or a skill we can use to bring glory to God. I know my purpose is to write. What's yours?